Paper Hoodie - Deployment

Uh been feeling lost I'm tryna keep my composure
Surrounded by too many soldiers and I don't even know em
It's cold as fuck here in Poland and it's not even snowing
Leaving ain't a possibility, my mental exploding
Woah yuh, feel like I'm trapped in a box
Can't play the game or make no music
Got my mind in a knot
Plus it ain't no days off, I only rest when I sleep
And even then I'm tossing and turning
Cuz I don't have dreams
Feel like a prison sentence
I'm counting days but I don't feel a difference
Hell I don't know when I'm leaving and that's a shitty feeling
I got this pit in my stomach because this shit is sickening
I'm really finished, I'm finna lose my fucking mind
Woah, I'm breathing in and then out
I'm tryna keep it all together even though I could shout
Suffer in silence don't let em see you tremble with doubt
Man is this what being a soldier really about?

Lost inside my mind I'm feeling hopeless
Been thinking bout the grave I'm losing focus
Mind been tryna slip away but they don't notice
Feel like my vibration at it lowest

Yeah, I ain't never felt worse
I ain't scared to die but ion wanna do it in service
Of country with a system where I'm not meant to flourish
Hope they play this in the Oval Office so I can serve em
Look, I know it sound like I'm bitching
I'm just afraid of wasting time I got my mind on a mission
Wanna share my talent with the world
Goated Descendant, I'm only just wishing
This war would end so I can go finish
Can't keep me down
And they can't keep me quiet
Imma speak my mind until I die, I'll never be silent
And they love to say I'm ignorant, so I can't get violent
Cuz proving they point is a method I ain't willing to try

Another day another worthless dollar
And I better be getting extra pay or imma holler
Hell I'm a state away from gunfire, explosions, and tanks
But you can't break me off some extra change to put in my bank?
Like what the fuck it's gone take? Huh? Me getting shot in the face?
At night cut off the lights and all you hear is the planes
Helicopters zooming overhead doing they job
But I'm always hella cautious they ain't dropping a bomb
It's paranoia, but that's the way that it works
How I know that won't invade?
They said the same about Ukraine
I roll the dice and set the stage, like I'm directing a play
But then they act like they ashamed when they feeling the same
Damn yeah, my mind is really a weapon
Everybody got a story but they don't wanna tell it
And the ones who do be lying tryna get em some leverage
I'll split em like severage
I'm showing up to teach em a lesson

Lost inside my mind I'm feeling hopeless
Been thinking bout the grave I'm losing focus
Mind been tryna slip away but they don't notice
Feel like my vibration at it lowest
In my mind I know I'm golden
The loudest in the room be the brokest
Staying ten toes I'm never folding
If Imma die I'm going out heroic
Deployment

Written by:
Jordan Smith

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