Cody Pope - Different Values (Catharsis)

I'd give my life so Domenic could have his
Or for Caleb, to be able, to hold his kids
I'd give my breathing, for more of Sam's teaching
Or trade places with Tony so his family he be reaching

Shave off some years for a conversation with Elroy
Acquire some gems before I'm off fighting like Hellboy
Give many moons for the older me speak with Rosalie
Just let her teach me how beautiful any rose can be

Don't need your flowers, I'm only needing your soul
Days I'm alive often feel like a bleeding hole
Every day a step away from beating my fleeting goals
Only shine I got is when I wake up peeing gold
I'm being told that I need to adjust perspective
If this is what I want from life what the fuck is elective?
Don't need a deal, I just need my thoughts collected
Just at a point in life where I need some course correction

Yo, it's hard to look past, at the times I was an ass
All the chances that I wasted, know I'm never going back
So many people that I've known, kept their love shown
While I kept mine hidden, afraid of what had grown

So many friends that have died, often held back when cried
Said I'm okay but lied, my brain is just fried
Guilt all in my spine, I feel it all the time
Things that I said, thought, or did with my time

Women I could have been nicer too, and friends I should have reached out more
Confidence I should have worked on instead of rage and outpour
Hard to think coulda woulda shoulda but that's on my thoughts more
Each day see the world move and I wonder why I've not more

Understand the value of living just not my own life
Took too long to see the things that affected my own price
Waited to start growing up after wasting all of this growing love
Waited to say what I love too many once they stopped showing up

Don't need your flowers, I'm only needing your soul
Days I'm alive often feel like a bleeding hole
Every day a step away from beating my fleeting goals
Only shine I got is when I wake up peeing gold

I'm being told that I need to adjust perspective
If this is what I want from life what the fuck is elective?
Don't need a deal, I just need my thoughts collected
Just at a point in life where I need some course correction

Hard to explain the way I perceive contributions
People with problems or people seeking solutions
Hard to explain the ways I learned accountability
So now my guilt complex is triple stitched and killing me

Don't get me wrong now I'm grateful I came and was here
But I think we overpopulated so I'm done here
Just seeking exit, safe calm and hope peaceful
Make way for the new generations to be full

There's many I've known who loved life and yet lost it
Somehow I've kept mine even after tried and tossed it
Wish I could sacrifice myself for some those loving people
Rid Earth of me, my negativity and my evil

Wanna do good and see a different way of thinking
But everyday that I'm awake my mentality sinking
Life on earth not peaceful as people make it look
Can't think straight, no matter how hard I take a look

Don't need your flowers, I'm only needing your soul
Days I'm alive often feel like a bleeding hole
Every day a step away from beating my fleeting goals
Only shine I got is when I wake up peeing gold

I'm being told that I need to adjust perspective
If this is what I want from life what the fuck is elective?
Don't need a deal, I just need my thoughts collected
Just at a point in life where I need some course correction

Written by:
Cody Enman

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