Elijiah - Distant

Lately I've been hearing people's call for help
It's hard to tell if they think my heart's for sale
Or they want part my wealth that's why I guard myself
It's unfortunate the people whom I was tortured with
And formed a clique feel like I owed them shit
Going back and forth we arguing
Niggas think they special just cause they knew me when I was on they level and the want a medal I stopped dealing with devils
I see my relationships and how they changed and switched went from drained and shit to where I feel I've gained something

I've seen all the fakes and dismissed them
They reach for me thank god I'm distant
They speak on me like I don't listen

I'm hearing the best parts of living
I'm drifting I fear I'll go missing
I wish I wasn't so distant

I should be distant woefully
Low-key hopefully cause I hurt people close to me
They're supposed to be my friends
Totally we openly depend
On each other vocally but
My emotions lead to ends
Solely it's my fault
I know that it's my wrongs
Control over my thoughts
I want but seems like I lost
I hide behind myself like camouflage
Its self sabotage that's why I'm at odds when I write till my hands fall off

My pen is repenting my demons
I went in go deep in my feelings
Regret and relentlessly screaming

I need to chill when I feel I'm the villain
I don't listen when my feels start to fill in
Maybe I should be more distant

Can't lose out on the love that I have
I hate what I say what I do when I'm mad and I can't take it back
It's tragic when it happens but I go to the pad
Instead of panicking and wear my mask again
I use my passion to trap the madness
The same passion that reacts to backlash
The last thing I want to be is an outcast
I'm scared to say I make mistakes
But I'm human so why do I mask the shame
I've made a lot just please don't run away

I've been in my bag for a minute
I ask don't think of me different
I'll only feel more distant

I don't want to feel like the villain
I don't want to feel like the victim
I don't want to feel like I'm distant

Written by:
Kyrhee Reid

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