Reach Justice - Drownin' In Tears

Every single year, I'm drowning in my tears, I'm drowning in my tears again
I can't seem to forget the pain I seem to give, the pain I seem to give my friend
Yeah, sometimes attention could be a gift to the world
But fuck it, attention can also make us bleed for a word
I know you heard that shit, that money ain't heard of
Bend chips and ends for a voice a shout or a turn
Y'all on the gram holding money to your ears
There's a disconnect, we don't call that money over here
Ay I'm through with college, so today's the day I make it big
You feel me? Shit, yo
Wrong side of the bed, but a phone is present, so fuck it
I'mma make it a right tense and swipe it
Feed it my ego on the feed as I take it to my grave
My sins and some leads
Yo, what's good, y'all? Today's a brand new creed.
I love y'all, and I'mma do this to the death of it
We finna brand this and call it making cheese.
If this was Fugazi, then I'mma take this shit lightly
But y'all will still watch and follow me, right?
I shit y'all not, I did some fucked up shit.
Yesterday, I tried sticking a nail through someone's eyelids
Add to that, tryna to burn my dog to bits.
Stole a few phones, got a chick's purse
Honestly, if the cops don't catch on, this shit gon' end up being a curse
Or a blessing I can't tell which one, shoot.
But the video's coming out, so stay tuned
I love y'all, and I do this for you, so please give me more views
Put the phone down and I got nothing to live for.
This attention span ain't enough, I need me some more
Lately, I've been on some sucker shit for real, you feel me?
I know you hear me and airing me, that's just cold, homie
Yeah, I'm talking to you, God.
You see what I go through
So why ain't you giving me the attention for what I do
I just wanna make it big and put a smile on the faces of children,
That's why I do what I do
Call it psychopathic, schizophrenic.
I don't care, just know that I'm different and unique.
I create art, not memes
Like I said, Mr. Ridah, what you're doing is not normal
Diagnostics would be a joke if what I said was just formal.
Like, this shit's serious, and you probably going to jail for it
If confidentiality weren't a thing,
I'd bring your ass to court just to make you pay for what you did
But you got privileges so
I'mma tell you once again to stop running around like a sucker for attention
You're losing all your humanity and rights
And you're finna go berserk just for a few likes
So I'm asking you to please admit yourself to an asylum
Fore the 5-0 pull-through and take you with them
You're losing yourself to a self-made illusion of
Pity and acknowledgement like thi-
Nah, you on some bullshit.
The shit I do is different.
Ain't nobody do it like me. My shit ain't elementary
I push the limits till I fucking bleed.
And when I bleed, I mean when I'm on my fucking knees
Gasping for breath, just one more second on the gram.
That's all I need. I am unique.
You don't know shit about me
If you wanna stop me, you're gonna have to call in the fucking cavalry
And choke me till I feel my lungs squeeze.
And all I see is the sky
Tell me right now that you got the balls to go against me
Fuck is you talking about? Ain't nobody there in my life. This shit pitiful
All I can do is talk online, cause y'all my only hope
You watch me and acknowledge me, for that I am forever grateful
But the path I've chosen is filled with sacrifice.
Trading my sanity for a shot at paradise
Attention's what I seek, but it's a treacherous game.
A hunger deep inside, driving me to fame
I lay my soul bare, pouring emotions on display.
Hoping that someone out there hears what I say
Attention's what I seek, but it's a double-edged sword.
Fame and recognition, they can leave you feeling ignored
I dance in the spotlight seeking validation's touch.
But as the applause fades I feel like this shit ain't enough
Man, this don't make sense.
I don't see a way. A gun to my face is the only way
I see a sign of hope, man, that's tapped, I know.
I row to the ends while I reap I sow
I hold the same bond, had to take it all back.
Hold a grudge now, where the promethazine at?
I don't see an outlook, man, and I can't even act.
I'm a thot and a whore, for attention on my back
Yeah, roll the dice, man, but it's never right.
So we jump off the roof to see if death is kind
Is this God's plan, man? Is this who I am?
Is this the sick human I'm supposed to be? Damn
I heard the sirens in the distance, I caught hold of fear.
My repertoire was drowning in tears
The demons grew louder, man, I had to call it quits.
Put the barrel in my mouth and I ended it
Every single year, I'm drowning in my tears. I'm drowning in my tears again
I can't seem to forget the pain I seem to give. The pain I seem to give, my friend
Every single year, I'm drowning in my tears. I'm drowning in my tears again
I can't seem to forget the pain I seem to give. The pain I seem to give, my friend

Written by:
Aarush Bharadwaj

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