Realitay - Fade Away

I'm getting used to getting shutdown
Everything that goes good turns to shit wow
Now I'm trying to block all this shit out
I'm blowing smoke in the air while I bake on the couch
Thinking deeply bout the family issues
Few tears flow thinking this caused my mental conditions
It's a mission getting through this day
That's why I have to fade away with not much else to say
I love numbing all the pain
I'm sick of all these games that they play with my brain
Fuck I don't give a fuck about this life
Nothing matters in the end that's why I'm always high
Why do I always get my hopes up
I'm always getting fucked over I'm too hard to love
That's why I turn to that green shit
Cone after cone till I can't sink it
The only time I feel a sense of peace
Is when I'm that fucked up and I can't speak
I think I'm done with this life I swear
If I died next week yeah I wouldn't care
I might as well leave something great behind
Like all these smooth rhymes that your grandson could find
It's actually crazy that I started rap
Like if I didn't do that where would I be at
Friends drift till they drift away
Some people only wanna see ya on your happy day
I blaze cause this systems fake
I'm sick of people trying to impress the people that they hate
I say live for yourself fuck what they think your the one in your cell
You better brake away from all the fake
And go follow your dream it ain't too late
I'm building up a routine again
I'm getting closer to my goals yeah I can feel it man
I'm gonna prove all my haters wrong
I'd actually like to see them write a half decent rap song
I'm hoping mum gets back to normal soon
It breaks my heart to see that you look so battered and bruised
Imma die if I lose you
You don't deserve all this pain I really love you
Tears still running cause I really care
I've always been a deep thinker lost in my despair
Still panic but I got a job
Still stressing from this lesson that I can not stop
I can't wait to drop this E.P
Wait your pumping this now so I did gee
See I am living in a fantasy
If your judging from the outside you can never see
I just wanna be the real me
The kid full of drive that's how it is suppose to be
But they still don't understand me
I'm the odd one out it's how its always been
I'm sick of dealing with this ex bitch
You never had my back to start with what you think this is
You think I'm just something to play with
Well now you'll never have me back I hope you suffer bitch
You always made me feel like shit
I know a good relationship ain't suppose to be like this
I grieved you so now it's to late
I hope you had fun getting with your so called mate
No thoughts but I'm feeling this
Heaps of weight on my shoulders but I'm moving quick
Shit writing rhymes before I'm hitting work
I have a vision this decisions gonna make my world
It's actually crazy that I'm really here
All I am is some consciousness in a state of fear
I'm doing better but I fucking hate
How most people let the government control there way
I've always been that fucking weird kid
Always against the mass I ain't no sheep bitch
Life ain't easy so I struggle more
All my pain in my raps have got ya feeling raw
Sure I could make a fucking happy rap
But I'd be lying to your face and I don't do that
Fact we're all creators in this game called life
We're not here to get paid and work a nine to five
We're here to help and change each others life
But seems like everyone is all about the likes
Imma stick to my music and create something special from my feelings

Written by:
Taylor Ramsdale

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