Cloudy - Fame and Fortune

It's BLACKD0T on the beat
Kill 'em Cloudy

I was always growing up as happy as I could
Toy trains and toy cars wish my life was good
Oldest outta four yet we living so dirt poor
I wanted to help so my momma could make more
Someday I knew that I would be given a choice
Live amongst the rest or spread love with just my voice
No matter what I picked momma said she would love me
Except for Dad cause he had to leave the family
Growing up I'm sad
Or I'm questionably mad
Why the fuck you'd do that dad
Yeah you hurting me so bad
I feel like I'm insane
Cause you put me in this pain
Man you got me good and I'll never be the same
I used to think of death but I'm getting past it wow
I need to keep on going cause momma needs me now
I write about my past in the music I'm about
So thank you dad for the way that I turned out yeah

You breaking me down
When nobody is around
And you gave up on me
Why'd You Leave Me
This story's been told
And Fame and Fortune's got old
And I just really wanna know
Why'd You Leave Me

I always wondered what it's like to be the new kid
I had to leave my old town to them I'm off the grid
Momma found a new man a one that she adored
Time and time we argued our rage went on and soared
But all these other kids were not nice as I thought
They liked to pick on me until I get pissed and we fought
It's hard to cope when I'd wished that I'd get shot
Or when I'd pray that my heart would die and stop
Never been this sad
Man I'm really missing dad
Faking happiness is bad
But at least my mamas glad
I'm caught up in these chains
Where these people bring me pain
Fame and Fortunes what I'll gain
Give to the poor like dirt needs rain
Maybe I will make it in this life that God has chosen
Right now I'm taking shots but cannot make it like Derozen
And people acting fake and playing games like they are cozen
I shoot a fucking bullet to my head but it is frozen

You breaking me down
When nobody is around
And you gave up on me
Why'd You Leave Me
This story's been told
And Fame and Fortune's got old
And I just really wanna know
Why'd You Leave Me

Been about a year since I threw away this song
Just another year of justifying all your wrongs
But someday I will grow up and decide to move along
Forget that you're my father and continue moving on
Just another year of me wishing I would die
Tired of pretending that you weren't a bad guy
I'm tired of me hiding you behind all of these lies
I kinda wish I would've gone through with my suicide
I really wanna know
Why you had to act so cold
Why you had to stoop that low
And why you had to fucking go
I think about the days
When the pain would never stay
In the fields we used to lay
Instead of you walking away
Mama told the truth and my heart has felt it's stolen
I blame you as the cause for all the demons who've awoken
I lie in my own head and act as those words were misspoken
But you're the fucking reason that this family's so broken

You breaking me down
When nobody is around
And you gave up on me
Why'd You Leave Me
This story's been told
And Fame and Fortune's got old
And I just really wanna know
Why'd You Leave Me

I was always growing up as happy as I could
Toy trains and toy cars wish my life was good
Oldest outta four yet we living so dirt poor
I wanted to help so my momma could make more
Someday I knew that I would be given a choice
Live amongst the rest or spread love with just my voice
No matter what I picked momma said she would love me
Except for Dad cause he had to leave the family

Written by:
Isaac Ritter

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