DFinest - Family Affairs

I wish the time you took to leave you took the time to think
All the actions you did made it hard to sleep
The more I talk the more you yell about me complaining
I wish everyone loved me like my name is Raymond
Too many problems way too high for me to hurdle over
It's getting way too deep for me to seek some closure
Only time I feel peace is when I'm alone
Why it seems like everything I do always seen as wrong
If they laugh, and you laugh, then who side are you on?
You know, they love to see a broken up family home
Kids waiting patiently for adults to be grown
Knowing their absence done made the mentally torn
And now they have to hide the way they feel in public
They always get tongue-tied with sensitive subjects
His family tried to avoid it, and say that it's nothing
Deep down, he wants to carve something that's not a pumpkin
Ignorance is bliss in that second he sees his wrist
I don't think he ever thought he would see moments like this
Crying out for help, but none of his pain was felt
Only thing he had in mind was harm to himself
Going up the stairs, tryna find the nearest room
Trying to see which cabinet that he can get into
Two pills there it was a red one and a blue
If you were in his shoes, which one would you choose?
Red one takes away the pain to see a brighter day
Blue one bring someone back so they can live today
Either way, which ever you choose gonna make a change
Cause its getting way too hard dealing with the pain
Thinking inside like all these drugs, gone ease the pain
Knowing when he's sobers up, he still dealing with the same
The clock keeps ticking, the time going against him
Knowing he's too old to keep playing the victim
Its hard to find solutions when the families flawed
Even with the in-laws, he won't be involved
His phone ringing on the side he's seeing who's called
Dealing with withdrawals so he won't answer at all
He's feeling like the worlds against him he's better off gone
Just to think the family didn't know what was wrong
He finally build the courage to finish the pill
The whole time he was nervous, how it'll make him feel
The family starts to get the itch like where Malik went?
If only they thought of this up in the pretense
Maybe there still be time to fix the situation
Father moved on, while the mother still hating
She said you can't see the kids if you ain't staying with me
He said why you treat them kids like they are a pawn
All along, he got to see she had different motives
And any question that she had was always loaded
Too much time wasted on who really right or wrong
When all along we know the kids are the ones that's torn
Just to think all of this could have been avoided
As long as she aint find the actions, always annoying
They finally found the right room and started hitting the door
She screaming baby Please talk to me once more.
She said anything you got thats really going on
you could talk to me I can promise I'ma change of course
But she didn't
Now she crying asking for forgiveness
Wishing she was there for her kid
Thinking how will she live
She can't get forgiveness for this
Wishing it ain't happen with her children
Wishing she can do it all again
These are the decisions
When parents made choices for him

Written by:
Daequan Jones

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