Wavvyspice01 - Fear Of Abandonment

I feel like a stray cat
The one you got up and left lol
You look at me expecting
After you neglect me
How can I take on your mess
My family is so tiring
I can't take on your mess
Won't take on your mess

As I recall now, yes I feel the recollection
Abandonment can tear you down
And sever real connections
What's this all about
It's tearing my heart out
I sever real connections
Guess will learn my lesson

I remember when I was younger
Mom left me with a hunger
For a real connection
But it helped me to grow stronger
I was just kid man
Wish that you could understand
When you turned me away
Mom you made me feel so thin

It made me wish I wasn't here
I looked better than I appeared
I was always good at acting
I just wanted to disappear

This is how I learned to cope
Connections I said nope
Unless they were unhealthy
Now I'm lookin messy
Try not to talk it out
Used to smoke and walk it out
But now I'm steady thinking
Hey, what's this all about?
Used to be able to turn my face
Now I cannot look away
I am facing this today
I am facing this today

In a way this toxic shit
It gave me comfort
In a way this this toxic shit
Was all i knew
After awhile this toxic shit
Wore me down I hit a wall
These feelings I could no longer refuse

You know when you
Can't ignore it anymore

The lunar eclipse
It woke me up
I feel the energy
Of the shit I push away
But I feel this energy
About the things that I must face
I feel it enter me
I can't smoke and float away
Gotta process this today
The fear of abandonment I face
Won't be lessening
Can't push it away
Toxic thoughts meet their reckoning
Process this today
No matter how it plays
Out in my mind
Can't get the best of me
Can't get the best of
Won't get the rest of me

Try not to talk it out
Used to smoke and walk it out
But now I'm steady thinking
Hey, what's this all about?
Used to be able to turn my face
Now I cannot look away
I am facing this today
I am facing this today

In a way this toxic shit
Gave me comfort
In a way this this toxic shit
Was all i knew
After awhile this toxic shit
Wore me down I hit a wall
These feelings I could no longer refuse

Written by:
Loretta Davis

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