Math CP - Forgive Me

So today I was feeling so damn exasperated that I took my bible just to tear off all the fucking pages
Lost my trust in prayers cuz my struggle feel too big to overcome, I keep that anger in my chest so much I wanna slay it

This is hyperbolic cuz the last time I took a blade inside my hand and planned to plant it in myself I thought about it
And now everytime I get this pain running through my body I got to remember that one time I made myself a promise

I remember staring straight inside my eyes inside the mirror swearing on my life that I could never ever make this error
I had realized that I was gifted more than many others and I saw clearly I was selfish more than many of us

To this day the mirrors of my soul tend to narrow back to tunnel vision and it makes me feel like I'm in fucking prison
When I'm through depression I start blaming all this shit on God but it's actually my fault I focus on the shit I'm missing

Oh God, please forgive me, I just sinned again
I sing it out sincerely, I want another chance
Another whisper of your hope, you can blow it in the wind
And then I'll blow it back to those I put through so much suffering

It seems that even though I drown in isolation I can't stand to be alone inside my mind I need to feel affection
But that affection I am used to as a go to gets me disconnected from the feelings I am going through

I have no clue, where the fuck is all the soul food, I'm opened I just feel lost, that's why I got a cold mood
I don't know what road I should roll to, all I know is rolling papers, liquor and my old shoes

I got to give what I allow to run around my mind a chance to be running in my mouth sometimes
I need help but I don't wanna talk, instead I got used to ways of keeping my head above the water

Maintaining, God knows I maintain, if you could smell the souls, you would notice mine stanks
I'm a sinner well aware and I'm feeling sick, it's not God against me, it's me not doing shit

Oh God, please forgive me, I just sinned again
I sing it out sincerely, I want another chance
Another whisper of your hope, you can blow it in the wind
And then I'll blow it back to those I put through so much suffering

Written by:
Mathis Caron-Pelletier

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