Ceo.wav & Ja-P - Get A Grip

Why can't I let go
Why can't I let go
Why can't I let go
Why can't I let
I made a promise I would talk about it
And even though this is an awful outlet
I'm the only person I would listen to
I know it's sad
If you've been there for me then my bad
I can relate I know where you at
If you need a knife come look in my back
I'm getting off track
I can't be vague
I think I deal with more than I can take
I think my family is losing faith
I think I turned into the shit I hate
Someone who acts like everything's okay
When it's not
You only hear from me when I'm afraid
I haven't said what I'm going through
If I say it then I'll break, fuck
The woman I love has been going through it
Imagine who you love doing shit that you did
When you had nobody, wanting suicide
You wake up, and they're self harming by your side it's a
Side effect when she increased her dosage
And I told her Mom I got it covered
Now it's been months of me watching her suffer
We don't have shit to lose except each other
So I been thinkin, is it karma
Cuz I put the people I love through the worst
This is what hurts, I found who I want a life with
And she wants it too, but not hers
Here's what I know
Fuck
I fucking love you and I'll do whatever
I promised you that I would talk about it
If they hear this verse that means you're doing better, but I know
I've been told to get a grip
But my biggest problem is I can't let go
I can't tell you how it is
Even though I told you I'll let you know
So don't hold your breath
Cuz if I tell you I got no defense
Oversteppin' on the closest edge
I don't wanna cross the line I'm too close, to it
I still can't believe I'm alive
But with all of the shit in my life
I'll just use it as vice
I could never live it twice
2020 wasn't clear to me
So I had to change my contacts
My pupils couldn't see what I watched
So I took glasses to the head
With the music eye drop
I finally gave you a vision
The people I wanted to listen to it probably didn't
They made a decision, it's not a surprise
Never told you pick a side
But I'm as dead as I'm alive
No one can look in my eyes
I look at my reflection and see why
I've been living too, U-G-L-Y
I'm tryna survive
I remember when I couldn't reply
Bitches sending me subliminal messages
I remember when I wanted to die
It's the devil putting death in my head again
But I won't let him in
Fuck
I made a promise I would talk about it
The person that I made that promise to
Couldn't live without it
Whatchu getting out it? I don't know
I've been told to get a grip
But my biggest problem is I can't let go
I can't tell you how it is
Even though I told you I'll let you know
So don't hold your breath
Cuz if I tell you I got no defense
Oversteppin' on the closest edge
I don't wanna cross the line I'm too close to it
Why can't I let go
Why can't I let go
Why can't I let go
Why can't I let

Written by:
Japelle Shaw Jr., Will Olenyik

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