Vazzy - Growth

Real slow energy
No high hopes, tight rope like tendencies
I can't go one night without memories fucking up my mental
I write with a penmanship that has a life time pedigree
I'm so heavenly, smoking on this Mary Mary
Life's been treacherous
I'm no stranger to the life that I'm living in
I been feeling like a light that went out
I spent about 20 thousand of my hard earned dollars on shit that wasn't needed
And I been feeling greedy
I been tryna call my life line for this reason
And I been tryna find the right time for my grievance
To subside but I know that time flies with the seasons and
I lost me nigga
I lost me look
I been a pessimist
Everything is negative
I can't even walk inside my neighborhood without the feeling like I'm being watched it's so unsettling
And I ain't getting better
Why the fuck is shit so meddling?
It's like I'm in a circle and I'm never getting out of it
It's power of the mind that I been lacking
I been slacking with this therapy
I'm moving super different and sometimes I get so scared of me
That I begin to panic
Why the hell am I so manic?
I been stagnant like the water in the pond that I been staring at for hours
Then I remember when it rains it helps the flowers
I ain't proud of who I am
Smoking loud to get a handle on the shit that's out of hand
I'm a coward of a man
But I'm a warrior through everything, got power in my stance so watch me grown nigga
Watch me grow
Life is such a flash back
Crying till the tears evaporate who got the last laugh?
Not me nigga
Fight me I ain't nice
I ain't likely to be up on all this happy shit
I am angry at the pity I receive from individuals who live a life like me
Possibly not in touch with my emotions I can't breathe
I'm a fiend for the drug you say is love and I been strung out as it seems
To be a never ending cycle, let my eyes close in the breeze and I been tired
I been tired of the lies
That I been hiding still in hopes
That you can read between the lines
And you would find that I'm in danger
I'm in danger in my mind and I really wish that I could press rewind
Out of time
On god
On my mom
I'm alone
On the ride
Of my life
Will I live?
Will I die?
Outta sight
Outta mind
Standing idly by
As the sun starts to set
And I try not to cry
Light the blunt and fill my lungs
This dance was danced, the song was sung
But I keep singing
Fill these lines with fears of mine
I think it's time that I begin to find my voice
Eyes are low, they're filled with red
Been feeling dead I told my mom
I'll be more lively
Give advice that I don't take myself
My mental health's at stake, it's not my choice
Light the blunt and fill my lungs
This dance was danced, the song was sung
But I keep singing
Fill these lines with fears of mine
I think it's time that I begin to find my voice
Eyes are low, they're filled with red
Been feeling dead I told my mom
I'll be more lively
Give advice that I don't take myself
This mental health's at stake, it's not my choice

Written by:
Robert Vazquez

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