Matt Zephyr - Hate Myself

I don't like my hair it's too boring
Hate all the zits that I find on my skin
Hate that my back has been broken for years
And I hate that I'm sad and all out of tears
I don't like my name it's too bland
Don't like the way my voice sounds
I know these thoughts are just illness related
I'll never let that shit ever weigh me down
Call me trash man I mute that shit
Tell you haters they can suck my dick
Matty Zephyr with the same great chick
You can always hate me can't join my clique
Got a goal in mind on my way to the top
I guarantee that when all my shit drops
All gravity and all time will stop
I guarantee that I'll never flop and
I'll work so hard even on the weekends
Worked so long that I lost my fake friends
Work so fast and I leave no loose ends
Work so smart reinvent the system
So many people trying to steal my spirit
I stopped drinking you can have it
Shut the fuck up you don't know shit
Till you get out of your basement
Take a walk outside your comfort
Wear my face up on your T-shirt
Make a new friend at a concert
Leave a boomer feeling butthurt
Never let a hater tell you what you're worth
You should know that you don't fit their words
Make it seem like you never heard
Everybody hating is so insecure
I've always hated myself
Yeah I've always wished to be someone else
I know that time will leave me here with death
But until then please let me sing the rest
I know that I'm immature
Yeah I'm living life for fun and never take detours
Write an album then another then I plan my tours
And I'm never giving up no matter what I'm told
Please believe that I try my best
Even if I think I suck and I hate myself
Yeah
Maybe I can make it even if I feel
Like I don't deserve it please don't cheer
Yeah I'm always trying to figure out the deal
With the way my thoughts are so unclear
So if one day I can engineer
A way to bypass all my fears
We can figure out a way to get far from here
We can make all of the hate forever disappear
I know my dream seems far away
But I figured if I dream it every day
I could try to get my peeps inspired
Give new hope to the undesired
I'll be here so motivated
I'll grow shields I'm fully loaded
Ain't no way I'll be demoted
Ain't no lie think I was chosen
I think I've lived it all to tell it back inside a song
Maybe my illness has been helping me out all along
I thought I hated life but I just hated where I was
Surround yourself with greatness
Never fucking give it up
I have always hated
Being cold alone and faded
So I stayed up every day late
Making beats into my logic
I have never been amazing
Nevermind that I was using
My anxiety is proving
I got something to believe in
What about your favorite doing
What about the ones you love
What about your future
Please don't hesitate or fuck it up
Better fucking realize the world is better without drugs
So maybe pick up the phone and give a check-up on the buds
You don't know who's feeling sad
Everybody's got a mask to preserve their selves
I'll break down that shit too bad
Fuck stigmatizing mental health
Too bad I didn't know before
How much power can arise from within your core
So stand up tall and say no more
You know that dream's worth fighting for
I've always hated myself
Yeah I've always wished to be someone else
I know that time will leave me here with death
But until then please let me sing the rest
I know that I'm immature
Yeah I'm living life for fun and never take detours
Write an album then another then I plan my tours
And I'm never giving up no matter what I'm told
Please believe that I try my best
Even if I think I suck and I hate myself
I guess my hair's not too bad
Maybe my skin will be better with time
Maybe my back carried all it could have
Maybe one day I could smile and rewind
My name is honest and proud
My voice is powerfully loud
I guess my illness is coming and going
I'll have to remember that next time I drown
Damn

Written by:
Mathieu Mazerolle

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