LOVEMEFRVR - Heavy

Hey
Yeah
Girl my heart is heavy
All a nigga knows
Is funerals
This shit depressing
Don't know how much longer I can hold
Can't lie it's tempting
If I could I would but can't
Too many folk depending
I swear that I can't let them down
My heart is heavy
I know these niggas out here plotting
Tryna end me
If shit go live
I need to know that you won't hesi
Pull tight on all my enemies
Girl leave it empty
Don't you go letting me down no
Shit broke my heart when they caught Tae with hollows hey
This life ain't promised
Can't think bout tomorrow hey
I hate the fact
You one tough act to follow yeah
Know what a happen but still I'm a dial
Man nowadays I'm way too jaded for me to take high roads
The ones I usually would turn to
Done turned into rivals
My grandma always told me hijo open up a bible
Put your faith in God
And watch how soon he clear up all your problems
And so I did
But till this day I still can't get a reply
Seen too many niggas die
So many nights I done cried
Told my momma I'm a be the one to change all our lives
Almost ten years in
That blessings still ain't arrived
Like God damn what the fuck I got to do for some credit
I'm coming for all that I'm owed
A lot of niggas indebted
I swear to God
When it's all said and done
I'm done with this
Just as long as my family good
Don't care bout keeping up with this
Girl fuck this shit
How can I love you
If I can't love myself
I'd rather off myself
Than ever let these niggas put me on a shelf
I wish you had a clue what it was like living this kind of life
I can't even tell you the last time I had a peaceful night
These voices in my head don't ever shut the fuck up
I need me a moment
Leave me alone
Please back the fuck up
Can someone please tell these voices shut the fuck up
I'm so sick and tired
Know what
I got it
Fuck it I'll just
I lost myself in all my selfish ways
Thought it was a fair trade
Like I was safe from pain
As if it'd never rain
As if these secrets of mine would never see light of day
As if you never mattered
As if what we shared was just a phase
I'm way too jaded by my life
Can't shake this weight off
How it's me myself and I
And yet it still feel like a face off
So many people moving flagrant out here
Got me standoffish
All this alcohol I'm round
Ain't helping shit to get these stains off
I got to do what need be done
To ease this pressure though
If I start seeming less involved
Please don't take it personal
I swear I'm trying hard to evolve
Can't stop myself from free falling
If the drugs and alcohol ever wear off
CPR me cause
I'm trying
Bloodshot eyes from crying
Inside it feel like I'm dying
They took another one of my dawgs
Can't let it slide again
I just might spin the block until my arm gets tired yeah
Girl my heart is heavy
All a nigga knows
Is funerals
This shit depressing
Don't know how much longer I can hold
Can't lie it's tempting
If I could I would but can't
Too many folk depending
I swear that I can't let them down
My heart is heavy
I know these niggas out here plotting
Tryna end me
If shit go live
I need to know that you won't hesi
Pull tight on all my enemies
Girl leave it empty
Don't you go letting me down no

Written by:
Carlos Vazquez

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