Lapse - Heights

Never gonna be a great father
Never gonna be an artist
Is some of the negativity that I'm telling myself
I really gotta find out where my heart is
Man, the hardest part is
Knowing that I make myself a target
And maybe I shouldn't be going and mixing a couple chemicals
Instead of dealing with the darkness
See there's a devil inside of me
I don't really know his game, but I know his name
(LAPSE)
Only ten weeks down but I still notice change
Everything around me was burning down
But I didn't really notice flames
When I pick up another bottle I feel like superman
But I'm lucky I got my Lois Lane
Now it is out in the open
I'll make a goal and I'm willing to smash that
Coz I could be out on the road
Without my babies and all of my bags packed
I don't want no alcohol
Im running in circles like I am a lab rat
If you see me at the show
You can go light it, but no need to pass that
No judgment to anyone or anything
If your meddling
With the weed or the ketamine
I just really want better things
In my life
Want to be someone for my son to look up to
The ultimate prize
When my lady looks in my eyes and says I trust you
I've been rolling through the city
And I don't see anything that I like
You can come with me
We don't have to reach them high heights
I've been rolling through the city
And I don't see anything that I like
You can come with me
We don't have to reach them high heights
We don't have to reach them high heights
We don't have to reach them high heights
Normally I'm afraid of heights
Unless I get a little bit of shit
That'd get me through the day and night
I would pray the light
Never came through the window
So I didn't have to think about whether or not I made the right
Decision to be here
Getting Hella faded like
I crave the type
Of shit that kills my serotonin
No wonder I'd go home and start some major fights
It's getting a little bit easier
To get up on the mic to rhyme and say (facts)
I'm finding it harder to socialise
I just really want to hide away
I'm thinking the boys will be disappointed
'Cause I'm not on the poison
When it is time to play
I'm hoping that they realise
That I'm on my grind and I've gotta get my mind okay
'Cause now I know why I was drinking so heavily
But I'm loving this new lease on life and this energy
But I still need serenity
I cannot forget
Or live a life of regret
I need to just let it be, no negativity
I do not wish evil on nobody
Not even my enemies
I've been rolling through the city
And I don't see anything that I like
You can come with me
We don't have to reach them high heights
I've been rolling through the city
And I don't see anything that I like
You can come with me
We don't have to reach them high heights

Written by:
Andrew Cesan

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