Justin Gebel - I Really Believed You For A Second There

You said you changed
But all I see is static
A rogue connection in your brain
Like a pirate radio
You never told me anything about you
Except that we have the same name
Which I always thought was peculiar, but oh well
I'm overthinking it anyway
The point is I'm tired of waiting
And I'm worried that you've broken too many promises
And burned bridges that can never be rebuilt
You've learned that a quiet mouse is always just still
Permitted to go on, so why did you cry
When you could have still
Survived lonely, but happy with a cause
And not burden
You burned your tongue on a hot cup of coffee
Or was it tea?
It was a tired metaphor anyway
I love your company
But I see you try harder to impress me
Living life more dangerously
But it won't work
I'm only attracted to sociopaths
You wait for me, release me
You wait for me, release me
You wait for me, release me
You wait for me, release me
You told me that he was gone
But really it was you
You cried when I called his name
And flinched when I said that I loved him
But you burned his body and cut his flesh in the dead of night
Aching sores all over his face when you're alright
But I see it's a race
You're not okay
And I realize your selfish theme
You're nothing
You're nothing
I see your face in the doorway
Release me father, be afraid of my spirit
I won't hurt you, but I do what you don't want to see me go through
Gouge your eyes out, fuck you
It wasn't long before I found out that you lied
But to you, it felt like the truth
I want to retreat to my youth
Back to my childhood where I never imagined it would be here
With a knife in my hand and blood on the floor
And no witnesses to feed my delicate whore
I feel the coarse texture of my skin
A frog gives birth in my throat
And latches onto something
I begin to choke
This isn't it, I don't want to die
I want to suffer until the end of time
That's why I wrote you a sweet song
A song so sweet that I just want to puke my guts out
Because the reality is scary, it needs to masked
And I can't figure you out
You wait for me, release me
You wait for me, release me
And I'll die because of you
But I know it to be true
I need to covet you
But you wait for me, release me
So if you're feeling lost
I need you to know that you're okay
Reach out and say every curse you have prayed
I'm reaching into hell
Always apart from loving myself
I'm an animal
I'm an animal
Out in the ocean, there's only silence
Away from all the land's violence
The only thing that maintains my pace
Is the gentle air of a warm embrace
I feel the seawater spray back at my face
Rejecting the urge to take a break
As consistently as a boat's wake
The water turns
But all I feel
Are sunburns
My skin starts to peel
I feel a looming darkness create
A foreboding sense I can't begin to shake
Hiding and waiting patiently in the wake
A sleep is what I surely need
So long as it not done in greed
But there is no rest for foes like me
I ask you please
Let me go and leave me be
Lost to a maze I can't escape
But finally free from the flow of the wake

Written by:
Justin Gebel

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