Spepperonii - If I Die Tonight

Alright there are some things I need to tell you
Things you didn't understand things I couldn't tell

I am so numb now I don't feel the things
What you gonna do with pain you bring?
I need somebody to come and hold my hand
I have been so dumb I need someone's stand
I am nocturnal Jane sing me songs
You are an enigma that I wanna trust
I don't know if I'm creep if you like me but
Asking for one favor just come for a walk
I have so much to say but nobody to talk
Pages filling fast feelings turning into words
Shivering in long winter draped by the drugs
Starving for the love and world is feeding me tears
My life has got no fire I wish I'm someone's flame
Whenever I say something I feel I'm so lame
I should make more friends says my dad
Yeah I have got many they are all in my head
Man I am getting mad coz everyone is so bad to me
They don't care how I feel I'm not okay you feel me?
Kill me with the one swing don't pretend like you want me
Say it on my face I don't like it when you taunt me
We have been good friends but I'm no fun no more I get it
You don't wanna have me around why don't you just say it?
Yeah I do make mistakes but you just wanna blame me
Whenever life happens you pass it on saying I'm care free

I have been up all night just to find myself
I can't do it myself I'll need someone's help
If I die tonight I'll die broken and left
I can't love myself how will I love someone else?

This things, this things are getting out of my hands now, i need you, I need your help
Save me before it gets too late

The seat next to me in the bus is always free
All I have is anxiety no I don't see no dreams
I've been popping pills to rest my mind and get some sleep
I hope my friends become friends before I get myself killed yeah
Always lying on the bed no but no I don't sleep
Monsters are inside me tell me from whom do I flee?
Yeah I've got depression and I'm walking lonely road
The storm is getting bad and I'm sailing in small boat
They ask me to be happy and to stop overthink
Like I do it deliberately and I don't wanna heal
No I don't wanna share things coz they think that I'm freak
I'm often getting drunk even though I don't like to drink
Yeah I've been hitting clubs and parties still my life is bleak
It's not about the place it's about how they make you feel
My phone is always on coz reel is better than the real
God I'm so alone give this Adam one Eve

I have been up all night just to find myself
I can't do it myself I'll need someone's help
If I die tonight I'll die broken and left
I can't love myself how will I love someone else?

Written by:
Supreet Makwan

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