SonTranMusic - If This Was

Lately hate how I've been feeling
Laying in my bed, I'm looking at the ceiling
Wondering if I am dreaming
Can't believe that every night
I have demons to fight
Finding peace is not in sight
How could this be right
Voices that I have, are there to take me out
Feeding lies that I am safe, now I am full of doubt
Would you hear me if I screamed and shout?
I remember that day like it's yesterday
17th of June, I tried to take my life away
As I faded, I never thought to say

If this was my last day
What did I leave behind?
If this was my last breath
What's the last thing I said?

If this was my last day
Will I still have this pain?
If this was my last breath
Did I make things right?

This is my third chance at life
Moments leading up to that, I felt as though I could not fight
I took a look at my phone
I saw video that titled "PLEASE DON'T KILL YOURSELF"
Devil in my ear is yelling loud, so I passed up the help
I was feeling worthless, I was feeling useless
The night before that day, I heard a voice tell me I had no purpose
Told me no one loved me, and there's nothing left that I could give
Then it went to say
I promise, it don't matter if you died or if you live

If this was my last day
What did I leave behind?
If this was my last breath
What's the last thing I said?

If this was my last day
Will I still have this pain?
If this was my last breath
Did I make things right?

I remember saying
"I can't take this anymore!"
Face down in my pillow yelling
"WHAT AM I LIVING FOR?"

If no one told you today
You are loved, you are worth it
You matter, you're not alone
Keep fighting, your story isn't over

If this was my last day
What did I leave behind?
If this was my last breath
What's the last thing I said?

If this was my last day
Will I still have this pain?
If this was my last breath
Did I make things right?

Written by:
Son Tran

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