ChrisOptified - Ill Never Crack

I hate being happy
Cause it always makes me sad
Everyone I love I had to put them in the past
When I'm on my way

Gotta find a different path
Know that nothing gold ever lasts
Up and down, up and down, up and down, up and down
Now I get so excited for the life of me

I'm already fighting back the feeling of regret
All these little serpents always crawling up my neck
Every time I smile I know it puts my ass in debt
I'd rather be crying or alone in my bed

I'd rather shut the sun out, live in picture black instead
Manic panic, up and down, just trying to keep my head
Yeah, man, laughter's overrated
I don't got no fucking patience

I got dreams I hope I make it out this nightmare devil and tail
No, he don't fight fair
I'm punching and I'm clawing
Yeah, I'll make it tooth and tail

When they say I'm down bad
I see the way they stare
They say look on the bright side
But I just can't stand the glare

I never feel right
Cause my demons right there chasing me
Taking me underneath the earth
All of these friends of mine

I put them in the dirt
Not because I hate them
Cause I just can't make it work
Bitch, I can't take your heart

Need one of my own
Girl, trust me when I say
I'm better off alone
You can put the flowers right on top of my gravestone

I love this shit, love it not
My story has no fucking plot
Watch my brain as it rots
No, I don't wanna talk

I just went for a walk
And i didn't feel the sun everything it fades
It fades to grey
Run to oblivion

None, none enough, I ain't giving it up
The saddest part, I'll be on the moon
I'm rocking with the stars
Oh, when I start to smile

That's exactly when it starts
All the memories
All the enemies in my head
All the blemishes

All my closets filled with skeletons
The way it's up, the way it's down
No, when I fall, no one will hear the sound
My heart ain't shattered

Laying on the ground, my soul's tatted
With the name on it, man, my head fucking aches
It's pounding
Even with a smile, sadness surrounds me

My skull melts like candy
My heart has abandoned the hope for the future
Despair in my past
If I make it through the night

I pray I make it back
All these emotions saturated black
Till I keep my head up through the storm
I'll never crack

Written by:
Christian Lawrece

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