Castañeda - Internal Affairs

My rap scribbling is best written in
My heart pad
The same heart broken by women in
My second and third year of college
Jennifer, Kim And em
No disrespect at all, I write this song with my realest ink
Since kindergarten they wanted the boy on riddlin
I got bored during assignments
So I quickly finished them
And so my teachers called me hyperactive
And highly spastic
I just learned differently
They curriculum sought to tie me captive
Fast forward to middle school and I adapted
To the ridicule
That came from being a little too
Interactive
It's crazy
Looking back it's
Embarrassing to imagine
Myself doing the most just to be accepted and granted
A spot amongst the coolest kids I knew
If they happen to laugh at my jokes
Id knew that'd grant me access
But my pursuit for they approval
Left me strangled
As the noose I used to climb the pedastal
I put em on began to fasten
And now the tassel on my left
Graduated having no idea what would happen next
That's when finally the girl id been pursuing told me yes
After 4 tries and 4 times of her picking her ex
I thought I bagged a dream girl
But this ain't a dream world
To be real
What I thought would last forever
Ended faster like a plea deal
But anyways I shouldn't harp on that
Cuz honestly I been passed the bridge
I built on top of that
But I won't lie it took me quite a bit to feel like loving again
Back in the game, I told myself I'll never stumble again
And find a bad one
But as time passed me wishing that I had one
Led me to rush affection
That I struggled to win
I was the just friends
Stay up late and talk about they crush friend
The "why can't I find a guy like you that I could love" friend
Lean on my shoulder
While dreaming of they Prince Charming
Huh
I guess my armour ain't enough then
If Abel heard me talking like that he'd be disgusted
"Like why you trippin over one chick, dawg
There's hundreds and hundreds"
But I guess I felt my options were slim
Over time my prospects were thin
That's when the homie Autumn told me I should stop looking for a woman to console
All of my problems
I guess that does make sense
Eventually I found the one
And she was worth the delay
Shout out to Jay
Without him, I probably wouldn't have made it
From the dark place walking
Through my heart take caution
Serenity and bitterness
The halls they walk in
If I shared my every thought
You'd be shocked
"Wait, pardon?
I didn't even know it was like that"
Yeah, sorry it's the truth though
At times my feelings lead me down a loophole
I start to imagine them at my tombstone
Daydreaming about my death can get me too zoned
When I come back to reality, my imagined catastrophe
Has me wandering two roads
The real leads me home to the pasture in my dreams
The other gives me reason to lash out and make a scene
Cuz I need to take revenge, if what I'm seeing is true
But maybe vengeance is a method that is fleeting to use
Because the message of your pain can be misleading, construed
But what the hell, they all deserve the punishment that they due
All this family drama got me hoping for truce
But then I wonder what Tony would do

Written by:
Alex Castaneda

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