Joseph Tha Ambassador - Jaxon Shavers

Reach me that water J Money please
Trying not to lose my mind
Trying not to lose my mind
Trying not to lose my mind
Really trying not to lose my mind
Lord knows I ain't lying
Thought I felt it all til I saw you in the NICU
Nurses all around and they keep coming stick you
Wouldn't let a nigga stick you so imagine how this feel
I just popped another tab you guessed it relapsed again
Walk in the room you hear my voice and scream damn near instantly
It be hard to hide cause the shit fuck with me mentally
I start to question is it me could I be the reason
Pray they don't play at this point cause I'm tweaking
And if we get into it just know I ain't beefing
Feel I'm pussy then push me if that's what you're perceiving
Daily fighting my demons
While niggas plotting and scheming
All my love be authentic I think that's the reason
I always get hurt
Wiping tears with my shirt
Putting my pain in verses and questioning am I cursed
Hopefully this shit work
Maybe it'll change something
If I gotta change being real sorry can't change nothing born thuggin
I been trying not to lose my mind
Really trying not to lose my mind
Lord knows I ain't lying
I been trying not to lose my mind
I been trying not to lose my mind
I been trying not to lose my mind
I been trying not to lose my mind
Lord knows I ain't lying
I been trying not to lose my mind
I been trying not to lose my mind
Honestly I don't know what to do like fa real
Waking up to a text that you dead got me in tears
Thought I faced all my fears til I ended up here
Mentally breaking down but outside I'm full of cheer
You don't know the half need a raft to weather these problems
Positive side gaining weight
On the negative breathing problems
Go to sleep I put a finger by your nose make sure you're conscious
Wonder if God tired of me coming with all this sobbing
Pill popping to take the pain lately been on Molly
Make me happy for a second then again I'm lying
Not to lose my mind I'm trying God I need you more than ever
I know pressure produce diamonds but I feel light as a feather
Take the pain away please take the pain away
Other day had a thought to blow my brains away
Ain't saw the sun in awhile with all these rainy days
Sometimes I just wanna fly away to a lil hideaway and hibernate
I been trying not to lose my mind
I been trying not to lose my mind
Lord knows I ain't lying
I been trying not to lose my mind
Really trying not to lose my mind
I been trying not to lose my mind
I been trying not to lose my mind
Lord knows I ain't lying
I been trying not to lose my mind
Really trying not to lose my mind

Written by:
Joseph Shavers

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