Realitay - Journey

These past ten months have been the worst of my life
I've been winging I've been crying and I've wanted to die
It all started off when I sped out of town
It all started off with the green stuff and
My addictive personality I spiralled straight down hill
Till I couldn't see
Gee I've lost everything I've worked for
I've lost relationships that have been true and raw
I have fines that I can't pay
The stress is real pray to god for a brighter day
It's like I'm living in a bad dream
It's like my mind has been pushed to the extreme
I wonder if I'll be at peace again
Slow lane is the lane that I'm travelling
See it's like I'm in a dark hole
Brain still foggy but imma still reach my goal
Free my mind
From these demons inside
Nowhere to run
But my journey's just begun
I'm disconnected from reality
It's upsetting me more than anyone can see
Yeah but I keep moving on
I'm fighting my demons but I feel like they've won
I wish it never happened
Two tabs of acid and I'm still seeing patterns
Every time I smoke I start to fucking trip
And when I drink it's like I can't even get pissed
It's like I've been reborn it's like I've been disengaged I'm hoping this is just another stage of this evil game
Fuck I think I'm going crazy
Fifty valium pills
Pray to god take me to all my friends waiting I'm gonna be back soon
Sorry for ignoring and being so distant too I really do wanna hang I really do wanna chill
I've just been going through some changes that I'll get through
Free my mind
From these demons inside
Nowhere to run
But my journey's just begun
The mental health systems rigged
It's pure hell and they make money from the shit
I think these pills are effecting me
I hope not well I guess we'll have to wait and see
I keep on going back for checkups
Always question if the psychs even give a fuck
They all say the same thing
Are you suicidal or how have you been
I'm feeling lonely on this road of mine
It's like no one understands was this gods plan
Huh I'm still wasted in the dark
I wanna spark a spliff to escape from my past
The other day I had a breakdown
I can't ride like I did what a let down
I put so many years into it
Then I touched one drug and that's the end of it
Free my mind
From these demons inside
Nowhere to run
But my journey's just begun

Written by:
Taylor Ramsdale

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