Rho the Artist - Journey

Battling demons up late night
I don't know what say, write
Anything
Write anything
That's what mind tells me one day you go'n regret it
Swipe away the bar and I don't even read the message
Now I'm getting headaches tears running down my face still
Still feeling embarrassed life stuck standing in place feel
Too ashamed to speak to you till I can make a difference
In both your lives the circumstances you were given
Were a first hand lesson on how a good heart can fuck you over
Type of shit that makes a good heart turn colder
Type of shit that makes you wanna load up like a soldier
Type of shit that makes you wanna undercut these cobras
With the same heartless tactics
But y'all raised me better I can't become one of these bastards
Racing time hope my mind don't deviate and total
Writing rhymes hope to find a little bit of closure
Hope to God I repay y'all before it's over
My dad is getting older know he can't work forever
Muscling through the pain the accident left him
We always had our ups and downs but I never lost respect for him
3 in the morning leaving only come home to eat
Shower and then sleep
The next day hit repeat
Images of you and mom right before I leap

I promise one day this rap shit go'n payoff
No worrying about your next check or getting laid off
Don't ever think I hate y'all
I do this all for y'all
And my nephews and my nieces
Make sure they got the same opportunities that we did
Your sacrifices weren't in vain
Remembering days we were broke and stayed
With my grandparents in that double wide
Y'all gave us little glimpses of the other side
Still the love applies pressure throw me in a whirl
Mind saying "please help" heart saying "fuck the world"
Trying to right my wrongs like my fucking name is earl
Trying to get on buy my mom diamonds and pearls
Play as it unfurled keep me grounded as we hurl
All the weight making me curl got me bent up out of shape
I struggle everyday just trying to make a change cuz nothing's here to stay
I should speed up the pace

Now we at the crossroads beginning of the journey
This is for the long run momma please don't worry
Know they go'n try hurt me
I feel the world burning
History's concerning
Cuz brown skin and wanting change ain't a good combination for my well being
Seeing what's possible I still gotta act
It's time for a change hope the world got my back
Lay it all on track hope you learn from my mistakes
I've been grinding I've been eyeing my trajectory embrace
The good and the bad nothing great is coming easy
Never know when you'll see the sun setting in the evening
For the last time
Dancing over land mines
Cuz I wanna damn smile
On y'alls face when it's all over
Hope I make it worth the risk y'all took when y'all crossed over

Written by:
ruben carrillo

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