OakBaby TBD - Letter 2 My Heart

Feel like my heart's trying to tell me he can't take it anymore
Broken bottles of Henny, I woke up on the floor
I despise lies and the lies hurt of course
But I think I've realized sometimes the truth hurts more
Number one you was my first crush
We was young and I was dumb my heart was in a rush
I was doing anything to make you laugh or blush
But if your nigga knew, he would try and get me touched
Your nigga was my homie, we would kick it after school
But my main focus was always kicking it with you
Y'all was on and off so I couldn't wait to make my move
Can't go against bro code, but I knew you first, it's cool
I ain't never told him how you would flirt and send me nudes
So when he found out, I guess he couldn't blame you
Lost a friend over your ass, bitch, the blame is on you
Matter of fact, ho, matter of fact, we fucking through
But your ass just kept on coming back, and I ain't complain
I ain't gonna sit here and lie and say I ain't want you the same
Call me toxic all you wanna, but you would've did the same
The way her body looked, it's still encrypted in my brain
When we turned 18, you said we should move out to Cali
The plan sounded valid, convinced my parents I'm ready
You picked a one bedroom for us out in Inglewood
Just to find out you went alone, bitch, it's a single wood
Feel like my heart's trying to tell me he can't take it anymore
Broken bottles of Henny, I woke up on the floor
I despise lies and the lies hurt, of course
But I think I've realized sometimes the truth hurts more
Number two, I think you broke me to worst
Your ass love to fucking argue, it ain't phase me at first
Cause toxic love was fun, the way we fucked made it worth
Sex with you was the best, we satisfied each other's thirst
Till that damn condom had burst
We was stacking bread together we was gon' make this shit work
Nineteen with a baby, it sounded crazy at first
When I finally accepted it, I wasn't prepared for the worst
So that miscarriage hurt
She had a problem with a nic addiction
Abused alcohol too, cause she had no pot to piss in
I thought she stopped when she was pregnant, but she just hid it from me
She ain't like the fact that she killed that baby in her tummy
So she blamed it on me, took out all her problems and her anger on me
I just stood strong, I was in pain, can't you see
So when I left her ass, I guess the blame was on me
I guess the shame was on me, damn
Feel like my heart's tryin' tell me he can't take it anymore
Broken bottles of Henny, I woke up on the floor
I despise lies and the lies hurt, of course
But I think I've realized sometimes the truth hurts more
Number three, you treated me like your number one
Can't apologize enough for the stuff that I done
Think I realized I used you for your body and mind
But I promise you those wasn't my intentions at the time
I was in South Africa for four months, you would visit me there
I was infatuated by you, by your body and stare
You was the first person to show me that you love me and care
But I'm a product of my past and ain't no love exist there
I wasn't used to that, I ain't know how to express it
I was always toxic, feel like you taught me a lesson
I mean you was older, five years to be exact
I think something about your maturity somehow kept me intact
Zulu girl, so our cultures and traditions collide
Knew that if I wanted you, I had to make you my bride
We was three months in, my pops tried arranging our marriage
I was so under pressure when we sat down with your parents
I ain't know how to tell 'em, or tell you I wasn't ready
I was living in the moment, I was trying to go steady
I ain't wanna hurt you or embarrass you front your family
So I just kept my feelings in cause I was raised to be manly
I broke your abstinence, something so holy and pure
Thought I was expressing my love by letting my dick reassure
I was a hurt soul, and you looked like the cure
Before I did all that I had to be clear you were sure
I loved the way you looked at me when I stuck it in deep
You loved it from the back to feel me grip on your cheeks
I loved the way you moaned, the way you struggled to speak
You loved to give me dome and watch me tug on the sheets
I told you that I loved you and I thought I did mean it
But when I flew home that put some distance between it
Honeymoon stage was over and I felt all alone
So I started thinking, soul searching, I was all on my own
I explained the situation to my mama and cried
Told her that the distance made me feel a divide
So I called you on the phone and I told you my side
Broke up with you on the day that's called Valentine's, damn

Written by:
Brendon Adams

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