Ashton Forever - Losing My Mind

I was lost i had to find it on my own
I never planned to do all this alone
Sometimes I dont know where i am goin
But i gotta stay high and survive

Im stuck in my head I cant get these voices out of me
I just need to vent i really wonder who's proud of me
Im livin but feel dead-seems like everybody doubtin me
Im losing my mind

Sometimes i dont wanna get out of my bed-and instead of prayin and sayin amen im wishin im dead
Im constantly fighting demons im constantly in my head im vonstantly struggling with anxiety and im depressed im just tryna find a way i never know whats comin next
Do i pop these pills and drink this liquor its burning my chest?
Do i just say fuck it it aint workin my life is a mess?
She said she love me but she was lovin somebody else instead
Have you ever felt like you was broken by something they said
I remember suffocating i couldnt breathe in my bed
Nobody was there for me i had only me in my head
Didnt think it was fair to me so i started poppin meds

Im struggling but they don't know it
I need a fix ive been broken
Im never the one to show it
I dont know i just keep goin
I dont what love is anymore after everything these hoes did
I lost confidence and now i can barely show my emotions

Ive been,
So broken
I aint lyin
Ive spoken
Im cryin
Feel hopeless
Sometimes i feel like im dying inside

Im full of anxiety
Isolated from society
Sometimes I wonder if it'll ever change
Im searching for happiness in a better place
And what's why

Im losing my mind
Im losing my mind


Ive been bleeding ive been sweatin ive been focused on this rapshit
Somedays i dont feel like trying, im thinkin of quittin rappin
And nobody truly get it i feel like my world be clashin
I just wanna feed my family im prayin to make it happen
And aint nobody take me serious until i start snappin
But ive been reading and meditating on taking way more action
I learned to not show reactions
My conscious is tryin to tap in
I got a dream im tryna grab-it
Im cut from a different fab-ric
Your power is in your mind
If you believe it u can have it
And u gotta keep on workin hard and consistently build good habits
If you wanna be the greatest get obsessed become an addict
And They day u truly fail is the day u stop goin at it
Ive been fighting with myself tryna stay sane in all this madness
Sometimes i feel like im dying and my heart is filled with sadness
All this pain that i am feeling dont wish anyone to have it
They dont know what ive been going thru
I wish this never happened

I got this pain in my heart
Im filled with sadness inside
My emotions are trapped in the dark
Im using drugs so I can feel alive
Im bleeding but I feel numb
My heart is full of pain
I can never get to sleep at night
Because of all the thoughts in my brain
And that's why
Im losing my mind
Im losing my mind

I was down i was broken but this time around ive rosen
I got dreams like im derozan
They cant break me now im frozen
I just flew away to cali venice beach i dipped to my toes in
I just manifested everything i want and where i was goin
Im writtin a page up in my book that i dont ever plan on closing
Ive been holdin my emotions
Ive been sad and they dont-know-it
Ive hid it from those im closest,
I think its time they read this chapter and understand who the man is that truly wrote this

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