Juco Law - Masks

I been so lost, I need someone to show me
I been so lost 
I need someone to show me forgiveness
Can't live with myself 
I can't go on like this no more
I'm in no condition to live with myself
Don't wanna put on a face
I don't wanna be this way
I wanna be me again, myself 
I'm staying at arms length
I don't wanna be afraid
I just felt the need to say

This epistle is for the people who never listen to reason
The reason I'm writing this for the record
Is not to pressure you
Even though it's depressing to see you go that direction
Could easily be corrected before the reckoning begins
If faith has taught me a lesson, the less I believe in
The more it seems like rejecting the air I'm breathing
'Cause breathing affects my freedom
My freedom is not a fact, if my only action is feeling
Whatever feeling is best for me
That's the thing I obsessively find appealing
I'm peeling the fruit I said I would never eat
And concealing my nakedness from the heavens
This leprosy isn't healing itself
I'm decrepit, I'm dragging everything down with the dragon
Desperately looking for something, anything
I can grab on to remedy all the damage I've readily done to people that care for me
Carefully say a prayer for me
I been fearful as Hero
So don't you dare shed a tear for me
Just hold my hand as I'm drownin in this

I been so lost 
I need someone to show me forgiveness
Can't live with myself 
I can't go on like this no more
I'm in no condition to live with myself
Don't wanna put on a face
I don't wanna be this way
I wanna be me again, myself 
I'm staying at arms length
I don't wanna be afraid
I just felt the need to say

You've fallen down, you must come home now
Been separated by denial
And I'm violating all the talk inside of myself
I'm waiting for the day that you don't have to lie
And you don't have to cry
And you don't need a mask to try to hide behind
To cover up your shame, 'cause everyone's the same
Different varieties of hypocrites is all it is
If I caught a glimpse of myself in the water
I probably wouldn't wanna drink it
The thought of my reflection as being connected to me got me stressing
I'm in a sinking vessel, I wanna be fluorescent 
But how can I move on with everything that I've done 
I confess it to God but still I feel like a fraud
So maybe I'll tell the world 
This disguise isn't my size no more
Don't wanna idolize or false advertise no more
So here it is, I been addicted to the bane of my existence
I am vain and I'm vindictive
While behaving like the victim
I'm a liar, no wait, wait, that's a lie
Pants on fire: repeat offender attire
I've cheated and she was crying
And trynna sleep with anxiety
Thinking it's in her mind
Don't admire me
I'm the monster that's in the closet with Sully
Which clouded my judgment 
I'm flattered you'd think that I'm a suspect
But really I'm a convict

You can judge me
But what would people really look like
If all their sin was on the outside
This is just the real me, I'm done pretending
So how about you

Written by:
Darian Johnson

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