MackkMilli - My Addiction

I've been addicted to the pain
We all here are the same
Trying to find that escape
Hoping it'll get better someday
The infliction it has caused
On my family I got flaws
Everything I love I have lost
All priorities have been tossed
So get tossed into my brain
I promise you it's not safe
Some say I'm a little deranged
Needing out of my cage turn the page
Mackk Milli trying to feel
And be dealing with some things
Questioning life and it's numbered days
Quit knocking on my door I don't wanna play
The voices in my head yeah they like to set stage
Must be the reason I'm getting lost in my ways
Manic mood swings singing me a new tune
Panicking and damaging my peace to
Enough is enough yeah I'm calling the bluff
Self medicating my hate trying to make it on through
Been dying to remember how to feel
Signed my soul over in a deal
Need a piece of mind to get past these dark times
Needing sanity to call me back
That's real
It's sad to thing as I look all around
Each one of us right here
Started off trying to make it to the top
Became driven by our own fear
Spent our whole lives searching
For this thing called love
Finding it in the worst type of ways
Not understanding the damage that we caused
Breaking down the walls we made to stay safe
It's a habit of mine
I'm afraid to let go
The only warmth I had when I was left in the cold
The problem you see is that I sold my soul
Trying to find the peace that I've been searching for
I'm addicted to the pain you see
I'm addicted to being numb
Learned I was better off by myself
I don't need anyone
My addiction comes from the pain and hate
Yeah it brought me down to my knees
Everyday trying to fade away
Begging for something to save me please
The reason I am here right now
And I have a story to tell
It's better to love yourself enough to stop
Putting yourself through that kind of hell

Written by:
Connor McAulay

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