The Rapper Sid - My Life

I sit in my room and I stare at the ceiling
Everyone asking me how am I feeling
The last couple songs were really revealing
Just wondering if you took the time to start healing
No. I didn't.
Quit acting like you care when you've been so distant
Then tell me you've been there you're loving the vision
I knew you'd go places because you're so brilliant
Lies. Nothing but lies
Why. I gotta know why
Fly. Cut through the sky
Bye. I ain't got the time
It's funny they tell me my songs are too sad
Make it more happy and fans I will add
You'll be so rich that you couldn't be sad
I'd be so fake when I start to do that
I don't make music for no one but me
Built the foundation just me and my team
Got to keep going till we're living the dream
Your fake keeps on showing apply some more cream
Haha
Stop it that's mean
Being so rude that it's causing a scene
I drowned out the thoughts that I feel are obscene
But the shit that you're talking has me wanting to scream
You act like you care but I know that you don't
Where were you at when I thought I was drowning and needed some help just to keep it afloat
You turned to a ghost
Now that you see that I'm cutting the scene
Riding on waves like I got a new boat
You wanna come round like you holding me down but I laugh in your face like you told me a joke
You were never there when I was needing you the most though
I did it by myself with nothing but these dreams and some hope so
Oh no
Go home
No call no show
Everyone that's telling me how I should live is broke now
How does it feel
Knowing that all I had to do was be real
You know the deal
It started cause I needed to find the next meal
This is surreal
Used to be wondering how I would pay bills
Run for the hills
This is my life and for that I will kill
I paved my own way with the bricks that I laid
Went back to the lab and I sharpened the blade
Now it's so sharp I will serve a fillet
Then let it all rot as I watch it decay
Wait...
What did I say?
These are the things that come into my brain
Fill up with rage then I write on a page
But it'll remain till I fill up my grave
They keep saying to change
The songs are too dark and you're kinda deranged
Don't get me started
Go back to that trap shit where all of its staged
I write the music you actually feel
And yet all these mumblers keep getting the deals
I got to choose either food or the bills
While these lames that say nothing are making the mills
I'm self destructive
I know that I am but it's my only option
I get all excited and start to do something then throw it away for wrongfully trusting
I'm done
This is my life and I'm taking control
I am the boss you just filling a roll
Burning my problems I need some more coal
Shoveling dirt I keep filling this hole
It keeps coming back
No matter how many dirt piles I pack
The dirt is my problems the hole is my conscious but this is obnoxious can you help with that
My life isn't pretty who told you it was
Reality's scary so I keep a buzz
When I go to sleep I don't wanna wake up
But I'll crack a smile and try to cheer up
You were never there when I was needing you the most though
I did it by myself with nothing but these dreams and some hope so
Oh no
Go home
No call no show
Everyone that telling me how I should live is broke now
How does it feel
Knowing that all I had to do was be real
You know the deal
It started cause I needed to find the next meal
This is surreal
Used to be wondering how I would pay bills
Run for the hills
This is my life and for that I will kill

Written by:
Austin Sidney

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