V9 - Never Sleep

Them summer nights always hit harder than them winters
Cause I sit outside and reminisce about times that I was with you
My pop said no matter the time I come and get you
Then he got booked my sister got me ready for them visits
And I used to get into it with my granny I was tripping
Now I miss her god damn that cancer vicious
My auntie died that same way
My heart died that same day
Shit was deep I couldn't even cry I had to save face
Be there for my mama I can't look at her the same way
Tell my mom I love her but she scared I'm on that gang way
No funeral gonna hit the same
No phone call gonna hit the same
Take drugs to the brain but I don't think it's gonna help heal this pain
That shit will leave you traumatized
My daddy told me take care of my sisters
How the fuck I'm gonna do it if I'm thinking bout a suicide
Everyone got problems this a few of mine
I seen my family turn they back on me and left me scrutinized
My mind is feeling claustrophobic
Not a rapper I'm a poet
Introversion leave you feeling hopeless you won't even know it
Seen my mother overwork herself and now its taking tolls
And my niggas got more smoke inside them than a fucking juul
Had to cut some niggas off
I thought that I would regret it
I can't bring with me the simple minded to the place I'm headed
They was bums I fucking said it
Now I think it's time to dead it
I wish yall the best but we not moving in the same direction
I only felt happy in my life when I'm oblivious
Niggas really stab you in your back when they get envious
I don't got a problem fucking girls if they on pretty shit
Only way you know if she the one is if my feelings in
That shit don't happen often flirt a little then I'm probably walking
See the devil often we got friendly now I'm used to talking
Fuck with green like Boston if it's boring then I probably chalk it
I might see a coffin for a milli I can't even call it
And I was across the street from bullets could've lost my life
Don't believe me go and call up Lan was on the phone that night
Crazy part is something bout that feeling had me feeling right
Adrenaline was rushing through my veins it made me feel alive
1800 baby on that block is where I still be
And I keep it real but nowadays that shit could kill me
Sometimes I get scared about the future where I will be
Only writing songs like this for people who can feel me for real
Feel me for real

Written by:
Samar Pettiway

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