Chandler. - not home

I'm not home, least not here
Don't know where to go, my dear
Lost in a maze
Lost in your face
Alter my false imitation I often make
Off the page, I'm not the main
Mansa Musa, golden lakes
And colder days
Don't know what to do until I see the unfolding fate
In front of me I'm over it
You under me, I'm hoping that
The reason I've been holding in
And holding out on you is that I'm
Older now
Gotta different way of thinking
I ain't been focusing on smoking or drinking
Or loving or being a presence in your life
And I got things to regret
And I've been selfish think it's right
To think on how it affects
You and me
Remember days that I would kick back the seat
And I'd be open and honest and tell you how I would be
Put a reversal on your spell 'til my shell is complete
I think I fell and can't get back on my feet
I'm not home, least not here
Don't know where to go, my dear
Okay it's been a while since I've laid out my thoughts
And like how sugar is always paired with things that are dark
And how I put the milk in my tea to be marking the start
Even though you came to save me I've got scars on my heart
And even though I'm seeming lazy gotta tell it apart
And even though you think I'm crazy I'm dismissing the charge
And distance is hard, the tension building 'tween us like a visiting card
People see us wondering 'bout how we getting this far
Distance, from myself I gotta I get it right
Missing, wondering 'bout where I am at night
'Cause you got a reason to believe in me
And you afraid I'm leaving by the evening
Your friends gotta ask what you even see in me
You teaching me 'bout how not be so selfish
Helpless, how you found me then
Know I'm lost but you give me a profound meaning
I'm not home, least not here
Don't know where to go, my dear
I'm not home, least not here
Don't know where to go, my dear

Written by:
Chandler Smith

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