Alex Petraborg - not my best

I know I can do better which is why I'm so upset
I've proven myself worthy and shown myself respect
I think that's part of the problem though
I know I'm not my best
My self confidence is killing me
I'm tired of wanting rest

I don't know what I want
But what I want is not enough
I know the cracks will show
My mind is slow
To make the right decisions
No

I'm sorry to have broken you
It's normal though
That's just how things have seemed to go
I must let go

I'm not my best
I'm tired of disappointing
All my friends
Won't come and show me
How I've changed

I know the rest
Of this song is written for me somewhere
I'll find ways to lose it
God, I swear

I know that it just doesn't matter
Shit still sucks, it ain't getting better
As long as I'm still here

I know it's time grow up
I'm just scared of feeling change
The future's unpredictable
But the past is getting lame

I think that's part of the problem though
I'll make myself insane
Knowing things would be much better
If I'd just forget her name

I'm waiting for some change
But I don't know if it's worth the wait
I'm self reliant wannabe
Anything different would feel strange

I'm sick and tired of hoping that my
Days won't go to waste
But it seems pretty unlikely
I'm tired of wanting haste

I'm not my best
I'm tired of disappointing
All my friends
Won't come and show me
How I've changed

I know the rest
Of this song is written for me somewhere
I'll find ways to lose it
God, I swear

I know that it just doesn't matter
Shit still sucks, it ain't getting better
As long as I'm still here

Written by:
Alex Petraborg

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