JayMentarii - Options

I weighed my options out for me
Cause in my mind I tend to suffer endlessly
Been spending days on days on trying to find the key
To happiness but I don't think it's meant to be
They told me "wait patiently"
But life's moves fast sometimes I'm just not up to speed
Anxiety and Marijuana make it hard to breathe
The face you see on surface is not the face that's underneath me
Believe me
Every day my subconscious mind tries to eat me
The darkness that I talk about is not the same that we see
I try to pick myself up when I'm down but it's not easy
About to go sin again but this time it'll free me
Suicidal thoughts won't seem to leave me
Usually don't talk about it, it makes people uneasy
So yeah I'm pouring up and micro-dosing to appease me
Keep it all together hope the devil don't receive me
(Yeah yeah)
Feels like I'm standing in some fire but in my mind is where I drown
Wanna let go of all these dark ass thoughts that's keeping me down
I tried to run but all my problems just came back around yuh
I weighed my options out for me
Cause in my mind I tend to suffer endlessly
Been spending days on days on trying to find the key
To happiness but I don't think it's meant to be
They told me "wait patiently"
But life's moves fast sometimes I'm just not up to speed
Anxiety and Marijuana make it hard to breathe
The face you see on surface is not the face that's underneath me
Believe me
Stress that's in my life's pressing and beating
(Beating every day)
This darkness hanging over me don't have a favorite season
(Tryna make it go away)
Every day's a battle lately fighting off my evil friends
(Yeah just to be okay)
This is real depression baby I don't follow stupid trends
But look how I'm making out
I was down on my ass and was having doubts
Trying everything looking at different routes
Only got one life go make it count
But I came a long way from depression in basements
Switching things up so I don't feel complacent
Have a hard time, sometimes impatient
Cause thoughts in my head tend to be so blatant
Feels like I'm standing in some fire but in my mind is where I drown
Wanna let go of all these dark ass thoughts that's keeping me down
I tried to run but all my problems just came back around yuh
I weighed my options out for me
Cause in my mind I tend to suffer endlessly
Been spending days on days on trying to find the key
To happiness but I don't think it's meant to be
They told me "wait patiently"
But life's moves fast sometimes I'm just not up to speed
Anxiety and Marijuana make it hard to breathe
The face you see on surface is not the face that's underneath me
Believe me
Anxiety and Marijuana makes it hard to breathe
The face you see on surface is not the face that's underneath me
Believe me

Written by:
Justin Mason

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