Nevv - Philophobia

People keep telling me shoot for the stars
But I feel like I'm Cheddar Bob holding a gun
Maybe I'm better off capping myself cause heights that I'm aiming they may be to far
I got so much animosity built
I got so much anger stuffed in my heart
Everybody's got a hand they were dealt
Maybe I need a whole new deck of cards
Cause I got money problems and commitment issues, family members trying to tear me apart
I got love for you but you don't love me too and that's the reason why I'm stuck in the dark
That's the reason why compassion I lack
That's the reason why no matter how many
I'm thirsty for hoes I always feel parched
Time couldn't heal these wounds
Mirrors couldn't face my pain
Fruit of my labor they taste bitter sweet but nobody can taste what I taste
Nobody could write what I'm writing
People keep telling me shoot for the star
No follow your heart but that motherfucker is so indecisive
Help me decide if
I'm monogamous or more misogynistic
Am I wasting time and all these pompous bitches
Pussy alcohol and all these wrong intentions
I suppose I need help
I'm the one that holds you up I guess I'm the holes in your belt
I'm so focused on you
But you indulge in yourself
You impose in our plans
Your the one that comes first
And I will always comes last
But tonight baby look
Imma break off like a wishbone
Imma kick rocks with the Flinstones
I'm a pal bear with a lose grip
Your the deadweight that I did hold
Bad blood that my heart pumps
Your the past love that I can't shake
But I'm still stuck in the same feels
With the same bitch that I still hate
Who'd thought I built a phobia
All around your Philophobia
You are scared to feel emotions but
I'm the one that still ain't move on
Now I'm looking on your Instagram
Wondering who all the boys your with
Having sex every single night
Trying to fill the fucking void that sits
Deep inside my heart that turned me cold
All I do is just avoid the shit
All I do is just ignore the sit
All I do is put a morbid twist on the love and all support I get
She just wants to have a piece of my heart
She's gonna have to grab her torture kit
Knives, pliers and a couple scalpels
Said I love you that's fucking doubtful
She just wants to see the love I have
She's gonna need a microscope to find it
She said she carry all my baggage, hope this woman definitely exercises
Watch me expedite the process
Let my pencil write my own thoughts that
Make you pick a fight and start mosh pits
I want to redefine what's sane too you
Wanna shoot for stars I wanna touch the sky like sky scrappers do
I wanna rap I wanna sing I wanna stop chasing you
I wanna think love doesn't hurt but I know that isn't true
I'll take a risk, I'll take a ride, I'll rip the brakes, I wanna drive
I'll bounce back, I'll ricochet, I wanna taste of this life
For the tears that I've cried
For the nights I went hungry dear god help me unwind
Yeah my mom she done told me don't go wishing a life
That you don't put the work towards, that you won't sacrifice
Cause I've seen my friends die, yeah I've confessed my wrongs
But if you hold my mistakes how can I move on

Written by:
Ian Neville

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