Misunderstood - Post-Grad Sadness
I've been feeling low from the things that you never seeI just graduated college, but I don't know what that means
This rap shit, I always thought it'd be my destiny
But how can I make it when I don't even believe in me
Y'all think I'm the greatest and I tend not to disagree
But on the inside I've been tearing away at the seams
Been thinking 'bout my people that we had to leave behind
R.I.P. my family I'll never forget those times
That's why it hurts so bad when I say that I want to die
I know you'd have the answers if you were still here alive
And even if you didn't, at least you'd be by my side
Just like that night, when you helped me put down that knife
Everyday's a choice but not every choice is the best
Sometimes I feel I'm drowning, can't get these thoughts off my chest
I believe I'm meant for more even though I feel I am less
If life is a challenge, I feel like I've failed the test
I'm walking down a path that could only ever be mine
Post-Grad sadness, I feel like I'm out of time
Post-Grad sadness, I'll tell you that I am fine
Post-Grad sadness, I feel like I wanna die
I'm walking down this path and I feel like I'm so alone
Post-Grad sadness, you think you know me, you don't
Post-Grad sadness, don't wanna pick up my phone
Post-Grad sadness, my heart has turned into stone
Class of '21, but I can't believe that it's real
Swimming in the lake of potential but then it kills
And every door is open, yet I don't know how to feel
But now the doors are closing cuz I ain't signing a deal
Remember 2012 when I was about to get signed
My world was upside down, my aunt got cancer and died
Just thinking I ain't famous is enough to make me cry
But I gotta make, I can only afford to be right
Class of '21, I don't mean to act so ungrateful
But I grew up with Dogs, I ain't talkin' 'bout Fresno State though
I be out here celebrating and smiling, that shit is fake though
So here I am, alone, in my room; that shit is so painful
My family's pride and joy, but I also carry their shame
Got this gun so close to my brain that I don't even have to aim
I'd be lying if I told you that I never wanted fame
I got my bachelors in hand but let me tell you about my pain
I'm walking down a path that could only ever be mine
Post-Grad sadness, I feel like I'm out of time
Post-Grad sadness, I'll tell you that I am fine
Post-Grad sadness, I feel like I wanna die
I'm walking down this path and I feel like I'm so alone
Post-Grad sadness, you think you know me, you don't
Post-Grad sadness, don't wanna pick up my phone
Post-Grad sadness, my heart has turned into stone
I thought I'd be on tours but here I am in my room
Already 23 and I'm taking classes on zoom
And they gave me that diploma but I felt it was a tomb
I'm happy and healthy, at least that's what you would assume
But I wanna disappear and I don't think I can explain
I can't see the bigger picture 'cause I get stuck in the frame
My happiness is something I can't add up in my brain
I don't think I deserve the light so I drown myself in the rain
It's hard to play the hero when you believe you're the villain
They tell me that I'm great but can't understand how I'm feeling
Sick, but I don't need no penicillin
And the shoes that I'm wearing, you only wish that you could fit in
Damn, well I guess that I did it hooray
Damn, guess I ain't killing myself today
Damn, will my life always be this way
Damn, I'm just broken don't know what to say
I'm walking down a path that could only ever be mine
Post-Grad sadness, I feel like I'm out of time
Post-Grad sadness, I'll tell you that I am fine
Post-Grad sadness, I feel like I wanna die
I'm walking down this path and I feel like I'm so alone
Post-Grad sadness, you think you know me, you don't
Post-Grad sadness, don't wanna pick up my phone
Post-Grad sadness, my heart has turned into stone
Written by:
Roberto Hernandez
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