Vmix - Premeditated (Interlude)

Look, Slowly I’m losing myself
Came in this world by myself
Don’t like to ask for no help
I know I need it
I lost my mama this year
My heart is bleeding
And every second all my scars deepen
Im in the pits they watching me while I fall deep in
I’m on the edge, holding on
Can feel my grip weaken
Thinking of praying but mxm
I doubt that God listens
No disrespect but my faith missing
My family don’t speak to me
I’m pretty sure they have their own reasons
But I ain’t mad at them
Fuck it I’m lying
That shit bugging me all the time
And I’m hurting like all time
It wouldn’t hurt for you motherfuckers to check on me
But I guess, nobody hurts you like your family
I’m in my car and I’m staring at all this empty bottles
Don’t give a fuck if I crash and I don’t see tomorrow
If I don’t make it tell my sister that I love her
That shit premeditated
I’m looking satan in the eye
Don’t feel intimidated
Hope we don’t escalate it
Can’t help but wonder if I’ll ever make it, yeah
I’m suicidal
Tryna break the cycle
I keep my hand off the Bible
Cause that’s blasphemous
We drink a lot tryna drown the shit that saddens us
Won’t even lie I feel inadequate
Part of me what’s to quite
Part of me what’s to dip
They see me bleeding out and a part of me wants to crip
Heart on my sleeve mama
And I’m begging you not to leave mama
You keep on breaking up
Your line is hard to reach mama
I’m on my knees mama
An open book but people say I’m hard to read mama
And every time I close my eyes
You all I see mama
I’m tryna shake you but you not moving
Cried me a River
Felt that shit was kinda diluted
All I got is myself, I hope I don’t, mxm fuck

Written by:
Luvuyo Cindi

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