steen - PROUD

Used to say I'm proud
I'm proud I'm proud
I'm proud I'm proud
Used to say it so loud
So loud So loud
Can you hear me now
I had no one to judge but me
Back in the days when my dad told me
When he said I'm proud
I'm proud I'm proud
I'm proud I'm proud

You think I'm strong really
I need to see for myself
I think I'm bout game end
I've been lacking in health
I've been stuck up in a prison
Let me out of my cell
Life's been on a loop lately
I've been going through hell
I got buried alive
I've been ringing that bell
I've been praying for a while
And I'm praying it helps
Will I burn up in a fire
Only time will tell
I've been tossing all my coins
In the wishing well
Wishing that I'll never fail
And that I'll only pursue
Things I ain't outgrew
And to find my truth
And to find my way
Through this life of mine
And the innocence I had
Way back in my youth
What am I to do
To save my time
Imma live for what's real
Never live in a lie
Come for everybody saying
That they wish I would die
Done with people tryna change me
I will never comply
Yeah I put on my mask play dress up
Act like each day is the best day ever
When will I sever my ties from my past and be better
The voices say that time is never
Can't even get up
Can't even make up a lie to tell myself
Life is so difficult
It is so pitiful
What
Don't understand
Lemme give you a visual
Imagine yourself thinking that you are already dead
No heart in your chest
You stare in the mirror and wonder
And ask if this is somebody
You already met
Then you have nightmare of drowning
That get you rocking
Back and forth right in your bed
Just to wake up in the morning
And put three bullets in the
Back of your mo' fucking head

Used to say I'm proud
I'm proud I'm proud
I'm proud I'm proud
Used to say it so loud
So loud so loud
Can you hear me now
I had no one to judge
But me
Back in the days when my dad
Told me
When he said I'm proud
I'm proud I'm proud
I'm proud I'm proud

I ain't suicidal I'm just getting tired of life
I'm in a cycle and I'm tryna get hell off the bike
I ain't crazy my mental needs a little aligning
I ain't shady I'm careful not to fall in the lighting
Don't shame me
Save me
Tame me
Don't play me
I'm just tryna use the will that God gave me
That God gave me
God gave me
God gave me
God gave me
Okay wait wait wait
Calm down
Pause
Don't know what came over me
I'm only here talk to about my thoughts
I know it can be crazy for me
To take second and see
All the broken in me
And follow God
I asked him for help
Because I had no know-how
Of picking myself up
And cleaning my own house
Or taking my time to recollect my own doubts
And throw them away in the trash
They were so foul
I can't seem have a good image
Of the things that I'm feeling
At least at times when I be happy
And I'm high as the ceiling
I cannot function
A dungeon is the symbol of my being
Abducted and I am beating
The product that has me breathing
I ain't suspect
Don't think I'm right
Go on and object
I'm awfully tired of the subject
You can make my life ruined
My mind is too polluted
You must be too stupid
To think that I am upset
Yeah I'll keep my views and my issues at bay
I'll put them together and mold them in clay
They'll stay in good hands
And I'll wait for the day
To show em and hope
I'll be okay to stay in heaven I'll pay
For all I did
Taking all my lessons
From the life I lived
I'll be sitting in the pews
Begging he forgives for all my sins
And doesn't sell me to the highest bid

Written by:
David Steen

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