Ellerose the Unicorn - Red Tears

Communication has left the station as I'm late to realise
The blatant hesitation hiding in your eyes
Smiling as you manifest, naive but careful interest
Pretending that you can digest the things you'd rather just forget
Then paranoia says to me, you're just that brat with BPD
No one will take you seriously when you react like you're still three
Tears are red but they don't fall from your eyes
You find yourself dealing with death but there's no compromise
So take me away, I don't want today
How can I say I don't want to remain in this brain of mine
Please give me a sign
that it's okay to go
I'm in pain and you know
Please somebody show me the way to find a way out tonight
Cos I cannot stay in this state of mind
If I promise I'm responsive, please call off the men in coats
Your awkwardness is uglier than what's just left my throat
I'm so sorry if it scares you when depression overflows
Don't judge until you know how it feels to need to go
Don't run away or freak out when I say
I'm a no one, get me out of here
Every single day
it's just a trick of the brain to say
Hey, you've got some cells that are slightly astray
Tears are red but they don't fall from your eyes
You find yourself dealing with death but there's no compromise
So take me away, I don't want today
How can I say I don't want to remain in this brain of mine
Please give me a sign that it's okay to go
I'm in pain and you know
Please somebody show me the way to find a way out tonight
Cos I cannot stay in this state of mind
But then I feel you pull me away from the light
Back into the dark and back into the fight
To make my mark on myself again
So I know where I've been and I know I need help
So take me away, let's forget about today
Still how can I say I don't want to remain in this brain of mine
Yes, I know with time
That once I've found my smile I'll be fine for a while
Till the thoughts start to pile and the storm gets too wild
then it's end of free trial but I'll wake up where I am supposed to be
When it's my time and that light is for me

Written by:
Eleanor Guillory, Paul Worthington

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Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid, Sentric Music

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