Jul-Z - Running From Myself

I don't know what ill amount to be
But I'm afraid to show you cause I'm scared to see
I don't know what ill amount to be
But I'm afraid to show you cause I'm scared to see
My sadness was my lover but now I think that I use her
Cause I cheated on her twice and yet both the times it was humor
And she thought that she could leave but she knew that she was my suture
Now there's sadness in her eyes cause I forced her to love a loser
Then I started to lose her so I had to start all the rumors
Cause I thought that she was hurting me turns out I'm the abuser
So she puts a gun in my hand and then forces me to shoot her
Killed the sadness from my past now I'm worried about my future
But I'm worried bout my past cause my past is not in my life
I thought that maybe if I left all my past I could make this right
If I can't let my past just pass then I guess I should give it time
But if I tried to bring my past to my present they won't collide
I just want to make it get better I thought that I had to leave
And since I can't predict the weather it's always raining on me
And once I finally grab a sweater the raining turns into sleet
I guess the weather is like me cause it never tries to appease
I don't know what ill amount to be
But I'm afraid to show you cause I'm scared to see
My day is going bad so then what's about to come next
And now my week is nothing rad so I'll maybe just add effects
And now this year is looking sad I guess I don't wanna reflect
So then if life is what I had I guess living was a regret
I was feeling kinda open I thought I was giving back
But now I'm feeling kinda hopeless with all the things this attracts
And I don't know if it is coping if all I do is adapt
Cause now I feel all these emotions and I don't even react
I'm scared of where I'm going and where I'm gonna end up
And If my life can show you anything it would be my life sucks
Cause every time I'm moving forward I find a way to get stuck
Cause her love for me's not enough so I'm mad when you give too much
I thought the time I solve my problems would be the time that they scram
But when I finally solve a problem then hundreds more start to cram
I got the bread but there's no topping so now I'm stuck in a jam
But maybe all my problems going to make the person I am
I don't know what ill amount to be
But I'm afraid to show you cause I'm scared to see

Written by:
Julian Almazan

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