WesydeUnderground - Screaming Inside

I feel like I've been trapped in the dark
For so goddamn long, I think I'm falling apart
I think the heart that I used to have
Turned black, then turned to ash
Way back it started goin' bad
From the losses that I've had
Given away by two dad's, broken by who's had
A token of "too bad", why would they go and do that
It's too sad, it's too sad
And then my mother sends a call over my way
She said she tried to kill herself the other day
In another way
I feel inside my gutter brain, I don't need another pain
So I looked away
Just like the "Holy Father's" done since my birth
My whole life has been cursed, not worth what's below the dirt
I hurt
And what's worse, is nobody wanna comfort
I'm done for

Can anybody hear me? Is anybody near me
Inside me I'm screaming
Looking for a reason to keep on breathing
I tried to live but I'm dying inside
Too many questions got me guessin' the lessons
I wanna cry
I don't wanna try
I wanna die
I shouldn't even say goodbye

I shouldn't even say goodbye before I take that step
Before I bait that breath, embrace this hell
Erase myself and release this body to forever rot down a well
Or a hole, or a river ran of stone
A follower of none, reloading this gun
With just one reliever of pain
With it's home inside my brain
I'm goin' back from where I came
I tried, but I can't maintain
How many times can I hit the wall
Before I smash the frame
How many times can I give it all
Before I'm forced to change
Forced to live in restraints
I'm fighting with my brain
And this pain is my mainframe
Insane pain rains down like acid rain
I'm passed being strange
I just wanna feel like the rest of the sane
I wanna erase my name

Can anybody hear me? Is anybody near me
Inside me I'm screaming
Looking for a reason to keep on breathing
I tried to live but I'm dying inside
Too many questions got me guessin' the lessons
I wanna cry
I don't wanna try
I wanna die
I shouldn't even say goodbye

Seeing darkness everywhere but my eyes are open
Hopin' I went thru with it, I'm tired of coping
No light to be seen, it's hard to focus
As my heart splits open I can't hold on
To this life I let go, and in the after-matter
It's the same shit I knew, I can hear their laughter
Forever echos in this ever-after
Forever bastard, I cling to this status
Bring on the sadness

Can anybody hear me? Is anybody near me
Inside me I'm screaming
Looking for a reason to keep on breathing
I tried to live but I'm dying inside
Too many questions got me guessin' the lessons
I wanna cry
I don't wanna try
I wanna die
I shouldn't even say goodbye
Can anybody hear me? Is anybody near me
Inside me I'm screaming
Looking for a reason to keep on breathing
I tried to live but I'm dying inside
Too many questions got me guessin' the lessons
I wanna cry
I don't wanna try
I wanna die
I shouldn't even say goodbye

Written by:
Westley Martinez

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