Immaculit - Self Doubt

I'm feeling trapped, need to ventilate
I'm feeling trapped in this mental state
The road is closed, it's a contested race
Welcome to my home, my dome's a rented space
Lookin' in the mirror can't believe disguise
Always knew that you would be my demise
Try to be kind, but you're the other kind
The evil on the other side supplying me lies
I wonder why you don't want me to try
Why you put obstacles in my way that you don't want me to rise above
Was high above, you're pulling me down
Rather see Mac in a ski mask than out touring around
I'd rather be in this domain securing the sound
Instead I'm staring out the windowpane enduring it now
You're all alluring, obscuring my style
With that vile smile, hostile, putting me in denial
Why can't you get out of my sights? Just get out of my head
Instead you claim squatter's rights until I get to the end
I give my all to the ink that I write up
But you would rather see me think like Cali creeks, dried up
Feeling trapped, need to ventilate
Feeling trapped in this mental state
Gotta own the road, it's a contested race
Gotta own the dome, get out this rented space
Feeling trapped, need to ventilate
Feeling trapped in this mental state
Gotta own the road, it's a contested race
Gotta own the dome, get out this rented space
My mental state hyperventilates
I know my mental's instrumental to me being monumental
Gotta be bold, take hold, I can't be gentle
Cause as of now my mental got me feeling detrimental, uh
Assemble my thoughts, difficult to do
Because of you, the abuse that you done put me through
It's like every time I find some kind of inspiration
You kill the motivation, with no hesitation
One day, can it be open communication?
It's just you running your mouth like a one way conversation
You took over, you acquired my mind
Intertwined the good and bad like a hellish divine
I try to speak the real but your prosthetic design
Keeps my pen at your heel, keeps the poetic inside
I want to merge the two, I'm pursuing divide
I don't know what to do I'm straight losing my mind
Feeling trapped, need to ventilate
Feeling trapped in this mental state
Gotta own the road, it's a contested race
Gotta own the dome, get out this rented space
Feeling trapped, need to ventilate
Feeling trapped in this mental state
Gotta own the road, it's a contested race
Gotta own the dome, get out this rented space
Feeling stuck in an infinity loop
The voice inside my head controls the things that I do
You'll never be good enough if you keep being you
I don't want to face the facts but it's essentially true
The intensity too is just consuming me whole
Pour my heart in the music in turn I don't want to show it
Waves of insecurity surely stunting my growth
All your impurities surely taking control
Plus all the voices in my head, I can't get rid of the noise
Tired of being terrified of me having a voice
Will they like what I write? Will they be proud of my choice?
I know I should rejoice and fight for all the things I enjoy
But I remember playing shows way way back in the day
After battling demons telling me that I ain't great
Contemplating is this the path I should commit to and take
One foot in front the other man that's all I can say, ay
Feeling trapped, need to ventilate
Feeling trapped in this mental state
Gotta own the road, it's a contested race
Gotta own the dome, get out this rented space
Feeling trapped, need to ventilate
Feeling trapped in this mental state
Gotta own the road, it's a contested race
Gotta own the dome, get out this rented space

Written by:
Immanuel Phillips

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