L1 and Toni Smoke - Selfish

I trap myself in corners of my mind that no one sees
But I know I can focus my vision 360 degrees
I know the power of the brain to change reality
I know that I can find the catalyst and get it out of me
That little bubble in my chest that breaks my fucking heart
And stops me reaching out to people I will only get them wrong
Even when they mean no harm I cannot trust it
I am aggravated by my limitations, knowing I'm the one who made em
And by the centimetre I get closer to my core
Discover all the pieces of myself I thought for sure were gone
I must be alone now, I have tried it their way
I don't think I want the things that all of us are taught to chase
I met the girls who dreamt of bachelors and wedding cakes
And grooms with big salaries and doctorates and real estate
They didn't care for personality the realest fake
They could see the suit the hands the shoes the ring but not the face
And not the morals or the heart or the soul
We're bombarded with ideals from the moment we crawl
And right now even more so than ever before
I don't wanna be a brand can't we build a rapport
I'm out of synch with almost everyone i care about
Deterred from making more attempts so fuck it i'll be awkward now
Fuck it explain myself I suffer with anxiety
And i will not return your calls no more i need my privacy
I have been inside a cave the advertising lied to me
I was never nothing like the person they said i should be
I get triggered if i see acceptance of depression memes
And i get visions everything is linked beyond the depth we see
We need a marketing campaign to ask are you okay
I'd rather not be asked if its not what you want to say
Its worse to feel as though i perfectly articulate a thought
And realise i forgot to gauge the other brain was safe
It's alright - you don't have to understand it
I can't come up for air until i found atlantis
I keep it candid they call me overdramatic
They keep it bottled i think all of them are tragic
It's hard to talk to you, we speak a different language
I miss when we connected but I must repair my damage
I'm sending love without reception hope you felt it
I just don't wanna see or talk to you I'm fucking selfish
Said I just don't wanna see or talk to you I'm fucking selfish

Written by:
Laura Beddome

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