Caleb McCleney - Solace

I find Solace in being alone at family functions
When you get older you see the flaws in how your family functions
Cousin on dope he out of his mind
But all this time I thought he was great thought he was doing fine
But now
But now I just see his flaws
Crazy all the time I see him struggling with withdrawals
Then they ask me why I don't smoke
Then they ask me why I don't drink
I heard it from himself he can't even think without his weed
Cuz I see the damage it do
Nothing new this a generational problem down to me and you
Kid pill poppers tell me something new
Why does the news got to
Focus on who killed who
Like I just wanted to see the wether
Now I'm questioning should I watch the news ever
Its all fake
It's all bloated propaganda
Drinking my orange Fanta
While me and grandmama banter
Over another shooting
Over another shooting
Roll the clip
But please be advised this is nothing like the movies
And they we go to sports
And act like nothing happened
1 min ago a mommas baby died
And now we laughing
I'm sorry I guess it's our way of
Coping with the madness
What a tragic life

So we get high to fly away
Fly away to fly away yeah
So we get high to fly away
Fly away to fly away yeah

And this on the Daily
Thinking to myself like that somebody's baby
But I don't care
I got my check in the mail
About to cop a new pair
Just to flex to my friends
Away

I don't want your money I just want your love

Thought many times my hope fell like autumn leaves
My soul never grew frail In times of need
I kept consistent in hopes that one day I might succeed
That day coming I can feel it like a autumn breeze
Constantly looking for the key to life through others dogma
I'm trying to find the bright side to every problem
But that's hard when your baggage full of family trauma
All I ever wanted was peace but I ain't no Dalai Lama
But I found in it my music
Maybe one day I'll get it perfect I'm only human
Feeling lucid I'm floating through sound waves feeling muted
I'm track to be a great but there ain't no rubric to follow
Felling hollow from people cutting me short
Can't question my drive can't question my heart
Can't question my vision
Turn 180 like Torque
Maybe one day Ill find solace in all of my words

Where did it go
I do not know
Where did it go
I do not know

I remember it's was summer 2016
Big dreams was the only thing on my mind
Didn't think a year later grandpa would've died
And I stay in bed cuz there's stress on my mind
Yeah
Don't even wanna go outside
Rather stay in the house and Reminisce on them times
But it led to the music and I thank God for it
Started making beats and it's was hard to ignore them
So I guess I started rapping in silence
Searching for guidance
Late nights in my room I was rhyming
Keep it a secret something I regret
Then granny died wow look at the timing
Well then I wrote When I Come Home
As a memoir to remember the things that we did
And that's something that I'll never forget
So I write these memories so I can live them again

Where did it go
I do not know
Where did it go
I do not know

Written by:
Caleb McCleney

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