Rojaa - Stay

Tried everything I could of really tried
Didn't really help the feeling inside
Depression
Isolation
I understand a bunch of people change
I understand that nothing is the same
But every time I try to get away
Every part of me is telling me to stay

I'm losing my mind, I need you
I just wanna take care of you and feed you
You tell me that you wanna make me happy well please do
I know you cheated on me twice but you didn't mean to
I think about you everyday and I still do
I remember all the days when I would tease you
I remember all the laughs and the times we got mad arguing I'll take the blame just to keep you
I don't think you understand how much I feel you everyday is a struggle
But I know one day I'll see through
The dark tunnel that I got lost in living at the lofts and I knew that it was real soon
I thought we had it going we would be a team you
Tolerated all my bullshit and I truly thank you
We started falling I was clingy I don't blame you
But I tried my hardest and it failed nothing new
Guess I should of started college after high school
Never payed attention to my subjects I would fall through
And everything changed all my friends were gone too
They went off to college to get knowledge and the time flew
I started working at the country club I made a new crew
Not regretting anything I'm not asking for pity
I'm so proud of all the people that got into university
The ones that didn't they are second guessing and it hurts to see
But don't you ever think that you are not worth anything
Okay to take a break then maybe later start community
The academics pushing education what we used to see
But everybody saying mandatory nothing new to me
I try to take a chance but education is immune to me
And I don't know what else I'm gonna do I grab the Hennessy
And after that I go and check my phone to see who messaged me
But no one did and now I'm thinking what the fuck is wrong with me
I tried

Everything I could of really tried
Didn't really help the feeling inside
Depression
Isolation
I understand a bunch of people change
I understand that nothing is the same
But every time I try to get away
Every part of me is telling me to stay

I'll be lying if I said I didn't care
But how can I not when it's been a couple years
And everything we did and all the moments that we shared
Even when you did me wrong and you know it wasn't fair
I would try to bring it up and all you showed was a glare
Then you'll talk a bunch of shit throwing a fit pushing the chair
You were talking to ex what I was not aware
Then before I know it the whole night turned into a nightmare
Even with the negative everything was great
I wanna re-communicate but I always hesitate
I see that you completely moved on and in a better state
I don't want to ruin that and take your happiness away
But every time I think about you it makes me contemplate
If we still had the feelings we did like on our first date
Would everything be the same
Would everything be the same
What am I doing I'm wasting my time even now
I can't even enjoy a coffee at a shop in Southtown
Every time I walk along the river I remember how
Everything was perfect then it turns into a meltdown
God I'm such a mess I need a plan b
I try to talk to others but nobody understands me
The only the only person that I could think of is in the family
But I don't wanna cause any worry I hit the pantry
Back into my old habits I'm eating everything
I try to get away from depression it's coming after me
I look into myself in the mirror it's so sad to see
I'm letting all the feelings effect me and I'm so mad at me
I'm working on myself I promise just give me time
The only person that can help is me myself and I
Gonna work on overthinking the negative in my mind
I'm so thankful for the people that are sticking by my side
But know I tried

Everything I could of really tried
Didn't really help the feeling inside
Depression
Isolation
I understand a bunch of people change
I understand that nothing is the same
But every time I try to get away
Every part of me is telling me to stay

But every time I try to get away
Every part of me is telling me to stay

Written by:
Roger Sandoval

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