KidShazam - Dear Diary (feat. SkyDxddy & PONS)

Dear diary it's me again, another day of misery
I'm overusing alcohol and thinking over killing me
You're billing me a mili for a happy time it's really mean
Meaning that the karama ain't going for me I'm pretty beat
Woke up with a scream, mom and dad goin at it again
Wish it was a dream, pour the bottle all out for a friend
I'm a nice fiend, with a team of demons in my head
I'll show the world that let me go that I'm not gonna cry to bed
It's madness, damn this, tears over the canvas
Dance to the sadness, needs some practice
Can't pay taxes, cut me with axes
So maybe then they'll listen to my status
Boys and girls ain't on my radar
I'm devil, that person you want to hate on
It's okay though, I'm a lonely loner
Alone in my house, I'm a clown a joker
Dear diary it’s me again
I’ll burn these pages in the end
All these stories end so gory
And I don’t want to feel this pain
Soak the ashes, no return
Or I will read them I never learn
Finding ways to cope is hard
These chapters choke me I hate this part
Yeah
You go straight to shunning me but I relive it all
I’m only being honest why do you look so appalled
Should’ve kept it to myself after all you let me fall
And I’m sick and deep into this hell and there’s no one to call
No one believed me so I wrote it in a book
But see you don’t even have the balls to take a second look
You shook me to my corner now I’m dealing with the trauma
Post-dramatic stress yeah I’m already a goner
Karma didn’t get you so I’m crossing off your name
Rather stick pins in my eyes than play your little game
You thought that you should tame me so you tightened up the reins
Put a muzzle in my mouth so I wouldn’t say your name
Blamed it all on me chopped it up to defamation
But the truths still remains you’re the one that I call satan
After everything you’ve taken, after everything you’ve done
You get off on women’s pavements and now I’m the broken one?
Arthur, my mind is shattering, breaks
I've never been the type to show-off, flex
They're picking a team, I'm out, not next
It's your loss, lost your life to the Flecks
My checks get cashed by charities mate
My dates are ghosted notes, how great
I'm nice, I help, I'm good but fate
Puts salt on scars and me on it's plate
But wait? What? Where is the karma?
It's dropping me in the middle of Sparta
I establish peace, but it likes the drama
And drops me in hell, it's like a saga
Oh well that's tough, no shaq
I'm gone, hate got me screwed
On my own song, so I diss myself
Cause I can't go on
Of course I can, hate makes me strong
Soak the ashes, no return
Or I will read them I never learn
Finding ways to cope is hard
These chapters choke me I hate this part

Written by:
Andrés Pons, Ariabod Fatehi, Hannah Demarino

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Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid

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