Tezo Ali - the book of T

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This the most vulnerable version of me
I gotta give you the real
I come from a broken home
And till this day it ain't heal
Inside it bothers me still
When I see kids when they father
I shed a tear
I'm wishing I could be them
But I can't tho
This the life they chose for me
I don't see it ending well
Can someone prove me wrong, yeah
I don't wanna keep making
These damn sad songs, yeah
I just want my happiness
To be where it belongs, yeah
I ain't ask to get put on this earth
But yet I'm here, nigga
I been dealing with the same
For 27 years, nigga
I ain't never fully trust
Any of my peers, nigga
They'll take opportunities
Whenever they appear, nigga, yeah
To fuck me over
But I won't ever need closure
My criminal record sitting
Inside somebody's folder
A troubled child
With opposite luck of a four leaf clover
I always have been a loner
Even when i'm in a crowd, yeah
It's no lies in this
I'm not Pinocchio
And I was touched as a lil kid
But they ain't know it though
My innocence was stripped from me
Since that day I wasn't the same
My adolescence was full of suspensions
But who's the blame, huh?
Is it me or
Is it cause nobody was ever there for me?
Yeah, my subconscious telling me
Nobody cares for me
Yeah, I walk around frowning
They know that i'm cold and bitter
They know that I don't fuck with him
They know that I hate that nigga
And mama I'm truly sorry
For all of the ways I did you
It's always been me and you
In this world
And I ain't forget it
All that weight that you been carrying
My family use to shun her
For being a fucking lesbian
All this drama
You would of thought I'm playing a thespian
It's only getting deeper and deeper
But I can't bury it
Repressed memories haunting me
And it some scary shit
I just wanna let it go, yeah
This the definitive version of me
I'm telling you like it is
Not beating around the bush
Fuck a metaphor
And fuck a simile
And fuck a hook
They tell me I'm hard to read
Well this is your open book
So come over take a look, yeah
I ain't wanna do that shit
Just know that I was push, yeah
I ain't wanna be like this
The world did it to me
I was younger and naive
I didn't understand it fully
I got wiser in return got on my bully
Yeah, when you come
I promise to be better than he ever was
I ain't gonna fuck your therapist
When you need her
I promise to show up
To everyone of your track meetings
And give you all the guidance
You'll be seeking
Yeah, you ain't even here
And still I wanna make you proud
The only love I got is for my mother
And my unborn child
I'm just hoping when you hear this
You know i'm trying my best
I don't want you to be dealing with the same mess
Same mess, kid

You know adults are just children that got older
You know?
That grew up
Yeah

Written by:
Christopher Roberson

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