Elxtt - Therapy Session

Alright so, welcome Mr. Elxtt
So, in every first therapy session that I have for clients
I always ask the a couple questions, which is
First, who are you? What brings you here?
And then what is the problem, and from your view point, how did it start?
I hope you understand I’m a man
And I’m gonna have days that I may need a hand
When I’m falling through the sand
And tryna shake it off but I can’t
And these thoughts spreading like a cancer
Got a million questions need an answer
And I apologize for all the tantrums
Demons had my mind held hostage for a ransom
But now I’m into meditation, chakras and uplifting mantras
All this shit started back on campus when
Expectations exceeded all my reality
And I wasn’t exactly where I wanna be
Felt like my parents wasn’t proud of me
And I tried to fight it off when it started
But somehow this darkness grew inside of me
Then I read the book of Deuteronomy,
And began to let go of self hate and animosity
What’s the cause of it? over ambition
Denial of reality, peer competition
Broken connections from loved ones
Masked up intentions, lies and pretenses
Temporal friendships, to mention a few
I pray for redemption, I pray I stay true
I pray all these late nights and sessions be worth it
I pray I get a return on my investment
I pray the game respect it
It’s cool when the shots that I shoot get contested
As long as that shit not rejected
And I hate the I told you sos' from so and so
Who were nowhere to be found when chips were stacked like dominos
I’m just tryna heal myself like I’m Geronimo
Tried to find the cure in a ton of weed and a ton of hoes
But I was wrong, so I pour it out in a ton of songs
With hopes you can relate to the wins or to the loss
Sorry I think I over shared in this session
Do you mind repeating the question, I'm lost
That’s no problem at all, I just wanted to know more about you
And more about your past as well
Um something that’s quite interesting is that
You mentioned a few things that you’re not very proud about
And I just wanted to know, what’re you most apologetic about?
Apologies to all my exes, I’m gonna have to address it
I let us fall apart and barely put in the effort
And karma is a bitch so I did learn all my lessons
But the guilt just makes me question all my blessings
Like do I even deserve it, and what’s the purpose?
Did I meet you for a reason or a season I can’t help it
Get an urge to save a damsel in distress, and bring em joy
Couple months then I leave em with regret, they wanted more
I love a lot but it's hard for me to express my inner thoughts
I still pray you understand I tried my best, I’m insecure
I’m a loner, so before it even starts mehn I swear this shit been over
And I’ve had a lot of time to think about shit since corona
And my only prayer is that you find peace and find closure
Wanna stay in touch call me or I could call you
I know I got a problem
Learning detachment and learning how to solve em
I wrote this shit for Amy, wrote this shit for Amanda
Wrote this shit for Lalo, just know that I understand ya
Wrote this shit for India, wrote this shit for Deedee
Wrote this for Wend, it hurts me that you don't see me
It’s blessing that we separated finally I could be me
I hope you crack a smile when you picking up my cd
Or see my face on TV
The best move I made was moving away from DC
Just know it wasn’t easy
I’m venting in this session, rapping about my exes
It’s from a good place if I loved you then you special
You read between the lines and you figure out my message
You’re the reason that I’m here, we connected
Through all the tears the fights, the lows the highs
The days the nights, we paid the price
I pray that I could take your plights
You’re the reason that I’ll never stop the fight, I’m found
I’m found
Awh mehn
This is crazy
This shit is crazy
Forgive me

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