Think 2wice - Thinking 2 Myself

Thinking to myself
Is it really even worth it?
While I'm sinking into felt
You can smell it when the herbs lit
And I'm wondering if I
Will ever find a purpose
Or if I am gonna die
Forever searching

I'm off my rocker, I mean I got to
Be, I just need someone to talk to
But wouldn't speak without some decent weed and vodka
So I never see the need I keep it be and leave the offer
But is it proper? I mean I say I'm real
But am I really if I'm scared to the say the way I feel?
It's like a Philly overfilled until it breaks the seal
Eventually that feelings coming out you better take the wheel
Yea, and try to steer it in the right direction
Your spirit guides but the fear inside you might deflect it
That's why I'm stressing, guessing, trying to fight the questions
If you hear what I do it's a blessing but here's my confession
That I'm
Still
Here
Just

Thinking to myself
Is it really even worth it?
While I'm sinking into felt
You can smell it when the herbs lit
And I'm wondering if I
Will ever find a purpose
Or if I am gonna die
Forever searching

I told myself that I would always give a helping hand
That I would never live for wealth or be a selfish man
That I would never trade my health for what I felt but damn
I guess that I've been stressed and kept lying to myself again
The elephant inside the room is things that I presume
That others think, that's another thing that I could lose
I'm hovering inside my room its like its my cocoon
I got a couple wings but been to scared to try to find the moon
The worst part about it? I know it all
I know I got the drive but every time the motor stalls
I'm self aware but yet to care for those involved
Enough to ever bluff that I ain't scared to fall
And I'm
Still
Here
Just

Thinking to myself
Is it really even worth it?
While I'm sinking into felt
You can smell it when the herbs lit
And I'm wondering if I
Will ever find a purpose
Or if I am gonna die
Forever searching

Have you felt like you were captive in your mind?
Like you were trapped inside the passages of time?
Have you felt like all the masses led ya blind?
Because your past you're never past it when its passively denied
I'm so amazed at all the ways that we can lie
To ourselves got us putting on that happiness disguise
We actually could cry but it has to defied
On the shelf's where were put the songs we haven't even tried
Cause looking strong is the way that we were raised
We come from different moms but were basically the same
If they can see the pain then I'm takin heat for days
So I keep it all a secret and that vacancy is praised

Written by:
Thomas OBrien

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