Kelsie.Janel - This Is for the Rainy Days

This is for the rainy days
I’m no longer afraid
Cause I let go what you wash away
'Cause it doesn’t serve me anymore
I’ve now realized why you’ve come
To clear the clutter before the sun
Now I take hold of those rainy days
‘Cause they’re meant to work for my good
This is for the rainy days
Those days where I used to run
And hide so I could stay out of your way
I was terrified
Extremely terrified
And what’s so crazy is I actually like the rain
Because it sounds like a symphony in the sky
But along the way
The symphony of light
Turned into music used to instill fright
And I’d disappear like a phantom
Because I didn’t want to hear the cries of that opera anymore
I was afraid that the rain would expose
The wounds that I tried to heal in the dark room of my soul
And that anyone would be able to get
A clear picture of my undeveloped emotions
Why?
That’s a question I’ve asked myself for years
Why?
Why am I afraid?
Why am I afraid to let go?
Why am I afraid to hold on?
Why am I afraid to truly love, be loved, and be love?
Why am I afraid to showcase in full capacity
The creative being that I truly am?
If I continue this list would go on and on like a Badu song
As the world keeps turning I stood afraid.
This is for the rainy days
I’m no longer afraid
Cause I let go what you wash away
'Cause it doesn’t serve me anymore
I’ve now realized why you’ve come
To clear the clutter before the sun
Now I take hold of those rainy days
‘Cause they’re meant to work for my good
Well that’s only if you consider standing
In a corner truly standing while I say
Rain, rain, go away
Don’t come back another day
That was me
That WAS me
Afraid that the rain would wash away
The places I once loved to hide
That’s why
I was afraid
That the world
Would not accept the bubbly me
The serious me
The super happy me
The play no games me
The sometimes incorrect me
Wait, no
That wasn’t it
It wasn’t that the world wouldn’t accept me
It was that I wouldn’t accept me
Though I was conscious enough
To let my hair be as it may
And seek to live in my freedom
And walk in my truth
I was still too afraid to even face my shadow
Which is why I barely looked back
When it walked with me
You see, I left in my shadow
All that I “thought” wouldn’t be acceptable
Things that I thought I just knew
If I showcase them people would say
It’s fragmented
But it’s correctable
As if I was another computer
Stuck in a robot
Stuck in a program that they made
But no
They didn’t make me
So they can’t say what’s correctable or not
Quite frankly
I think I’ve been looking at this the wrong way
I spent years so worried about what others thought of me
I didn’t know what I thought of me
Without looking from the outside looking in
I should’ve started within
And just maybe
If I realized that God
The Creator of all things
Made me the exact way that I am
Sooner rather than later
I would’ve come to realize sooner
That the rain was just another one of God’s creations
And it was meant to wash away the dead weight
That I had acquired while standing
In the corner of the dark room of my soul
Whispering
Not even shouting
But whispering
Rain rain go away
I didn’t even have the courage to shout that
I remember the first time
I stepped out in the rain after years of running
I allowed the rain to run down my face
Then into the corners of my soul
I allowed the rain to purge away
All that no longer serves me
And man did it feel good
I let it wash it away the fear
That kept me from truly being me
I let it wash away all that separated me
From my shadow
Because I realized that my shadow
Is still part of it
I let the rain work for my good
And I am no longer afraid
This is for the rainy days
I’m no longer afraid
Cause I let go what you wash away
'Cause it doesn’t serve me anymore
I’ve now realized why you’ve come
To clear the clutter before the sun
Now I take hold of those rainy days
‘Cause they’re meant to work for my good
This is for the rainy days
I’m no longer afraid
Cause I let go what you wash away
'Cause it doesn’t serve me anymore
I’ve now realized why you’ve come
To clear the clutter before the sun
Now I take hold of those rainy days
‘Cause they’re meant to work for my good
Work for my good
Work for my good

Written by:
Kelsie Spears

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