AnB Sol - Thoughts

Do I wanna crowd myself with all these thoughts
Or can I shine through and never look back at what I forgot
To do, I don't wanna do anything to prove my worth
To people who don't care about me
Is it school, work, all these relationships that over-flood me
What can I even do to set my mind free
From all of this life threatening thoughts that I can see
And then sometimes my mind just goes blank
Can't even think what I said about last
Am I demented, or did I process too fast
Let's take it slow, I'm not here to put on a show
So why do I always feel like I'm on the go
Do I know, what to even do
I just need to be here to have something to prove
That I can do this, I can remember what I said
Keep going on, all the tears that I shed
Just to make sleep proper on the bed
But I forget about one thing, then I go to another thing
It's not short term because I can still think
And still remember, I don't know how I got this way
But I know something tells me that I'm not ok
Dropped out of everything because I really need to pray
That everything would turn back to the way it was
Because I need my energy back
Nothing I do anymore could bring the things that I lack
Into prosperity, I wanna chase the bag
But not like this when I'm basically a lag
Time, it's really running out for me
I just wanna day where I could finally be free
But this randomizer in my head, it has its own mind
Then its own mind, its own mind behind that mind
Feeling like my thoughts aren't even mine
So this is something that I needa find
Turning into rage, I've had enough of thinking this way
So before someone says it, no I'm not ok
I just wanna be free, I feel the demon coming out inside of me
I don't gotta prove nothing to no one
If you don't mess with me, you're no one to me
I guess I gotta bring this game down to its knees
But first I gotta set my mind and these people I hold a grudge against free
You don't really wanna see, the dark side of me
I've seen enough on how these people move, gotta lock the door with like 5 keys
Took the train to union, that's like my home now
Watch me buy it over, kinda feel like Hov now
Future billionaire on my mind, that's the goal now
All my opps left behind would be like 'oh wow
How you made it, why did god pick you to be famous'
I never gave up and I never took the hate in
Even though I got some of these hoes waitin
To see what I post next, 'oh where does he go next?'
They obsessed with me, I might not even need to worry bout the checks
Cause they got it covered for me, watch me take over the world with my scene
You don't even gotta see it happen, I'll be on tv
I just want the day where I could finally be free
Free from my thoughts, free from my heart
Basically everything that's happening right now
Cause I'm in a mess right now, but that's life I guess
Feel the pain, but the gain through my chest
But all my thoughts are stabbing my brain
Going back to the same thing
Now my pain is on my name
I don't know if I'll make out this lane
Why does it have to be this way
Never needed this in the first place
Hoping for some change, the bag is all I really need to chase
But even that doesn't really feel the same
All these memories flowing thru the purple rain
The demon angering all up inside of me right now

Written by:
AnB Sol, Amir B

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