J-RAA - To Whom it May Concern (Bonus)

Gotta get this off my chest
Alright

Don't let go
That's what they say right?
I'ma take this slow
On a journey through my mind
Say my heart is gold
They don't know it's made of ice
Wanna love you so
Bad but I keep telling lies
To myself acting like I'm okay
But I'm not I'm ashamed to show my face
To my friends, to my fam things are a-okay
But they don't know I'm plotting to blow my brain
Out on the wall when they hear this song
They gon' finally know that something's wrong
Is it really worth it to end it all?
Problems disappear like begone

What will it do if I go?
Who's gonna soothe my grieving folks?
Will anyone even care?
When I'm gone ain't nothing to bear

I ain't got nothing left
But this weight on my chest
It's getting hard to breathe
It's getting hard to step
I don't wanna go nowhere
I don't wanna see no one
It's just gonna be me
And this loaded gun
I can't do this anymore
Why didn't my parents just abort
My little sorry ass so they wouldn't have to see me in the morgue
With a bullet in my skull
And cuts on my wrist vertical
As they say for best results you run the razor down the road
When I take my own life
Please don't mourn and please don't cry
Just remember all the times when things were good just you and I
Know I'm in a better place now ain't no pain
Where my feelings good my mood is good and angels sing
I don't want this any more than you
But I'm screwed if
I can't find a soul to help me up
Out this abyss
Always find myself down in a rut
Getting stuck quick
I can't save me you can't save me now
Call me coward bitch
I ain't about to pretend
That my life ain't near the end
Anyone who called me friend
Didn't know they'd see me dead
Not that they'd care in the least
I know they want me deceased
In the ground six feet deep
I am admitting defeat
Ain't hard to tell
I'm living in Hell
That ring a bell pal?
On this dark road
I walk alone
Tell all the bros now
Not coming back
One in the mag
Brain'll go splat, blood
Flies through the sky
Tear in my eye
Never said bye, fuck
Drugs in my system I'm feeling myself ain't nobody gon' help me for long, aye
Walking on clouds I'm too high up to reach and I'm finally where I belong, aye
All by my lonesome where no one can hurt me and I can take rips out the bong, aye
Blow out the pain and the sadness and agony this is how I can feel strong, aye

What will it do if I go?
Who's gonna soothe my grieving folks?
Will anyone even care?
When I'm gone ain't nothing to bear

Written by:
Jacob Rau

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