Pat the Rapper - Trying

Walking around every day of my life
And i got you all thinkin that i'm just a simple dude
Truth of the matter is at any moment
I'm fully capable and i could just cripple you
Ripples and waves get outta my way
I gotta go but you fuckers can stay
It doesn't matter the words that i spit
Because you will never really hear what i say
But fear what i spray because actions are louder than words
All i wanted was what i deserved
But you wanted my meal as your dessert
You had the nerve but now it's time that i swerve
Around you and you will observe
Watch as i fly in the sky like a bird
This is your notice now you have been served
So go find a basement and hide like a perv
Sick of being stuck in the back with the wack kids
Fuck that shit because the fact is
I'mma keep it real while you're out here acting
Sick of being stagnant time for some action
Open your mind up open your mind
Life is a movie that you'll never rewind
Try to relax as i believe in the lie
As i say to myself everything will be fine
Fuck i can't grasp it i'm just a basket case and i'm snapping
Can not get past it
Maybe it's cool and i'm just being drastic
Dead on the inside but outside i'm laughing
Compound bow and a fractured skull
Rambo knife for your raptured soul
Hard to get a grip when there's nothing to hold
Got dealt a shitty hand but i will not fold
At least i'm not stuck on some guns and some gold
At least i make music with feeling and soul
At least i'm alive and my heart is still beating
And i'm not in a hole as my body goes cold

Yeah i'd like that
But that shit ain't the truth
The truth is
You're the weak
And i'm the tyranny of evil men
But i'm trying ringo
I'm trying real hard to be the shepherd

Living every second with a fucked up mental
Never gonna live up to my potential
Most don't know that i'm deadly with a pencil
But it really doesn't matter cuz its incidental
Contact high but i got a real buzz
Everything is different now it isn't what it was
Guess i gotta murder motherfuckers just cuz
So it is what it is and it does what it does
But back to the fact that i got a wack mind
And im past it in fact and i wanna feel find
The pills they gave me left me dead inside
Snapped my spine and left me def & blind
But it's about fuckin' time for a paradigm shift
Cuz it kinda had me thinking i would die like this
But i'm not that guy i don't cry when i'm pissed
And i won't go down without swinging my fists
I'm on a mission and i will not give in
And im not accepting your final decision
It's holding me down and it's pushing me back
But i rise with the force of a head on collision
Because fuck i got vision my heart is amazing
There's people that love me i want to feel strong
But all i can do is just sit here and wait
As i channel frustration right into these songs
But damn i'm impatient and i just keep waiting
It seems like forever it's taking too long
I just want to live and stop feeling the pain
And this empathy whether its right or its wrong
Maybe i'm old and decrepit and tired
And worn out and i should just give it a rest
Or maybe i stand up and kick out the table
And tell all you fuckers i am not impressed
I am the best and you're tripping if you think i'm a mess
This shit is a test i don't have the answers
I left it all blank so just fill in the rest

Written by:
Patrick Flaherty

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